On a lighter note, let me share with u a crappy story taken from a friend's blog.
I hope I'm not breaking any copyright laws.

"More on Mr. Yoshinoya. He is one of the bravest Japenese war heros of all time, it is rumoured that they even named a fast food joint after him.A brilliant tactician and a cunning strategist, Yoshinoya led the Japanese into the blistering heat of the Johor desert and even after his jealous superiors left his troops (and him) with only half a days rations. He managed to smash the French, British, American, Elven armies and a squad of polar bears, with only half strength of the 16th skate scooter regiment.Marching (or riding) onto singapore, they encountered resistance in the form of a few checkpoint authority officers demanding to see their passports at the causeway. Heeding Yoshinoyas advice, the Japanese soldiers skillfully executed the strawberry marmalade maneuver and quickly seized the causeway in under five minutes.After slaughtering all the poultry in woodlands, Yoshinoya gave his soldiers a well deserved break by ordering wholesale KitKat from the local distributer. It was during this time that while taking a bathroom break at the singapore river he was ambushed by some Space Monkey Partisans. Yoshinoya sustained a laser blast to both his ankles (thanks to the superb gunnery skills of the monkeys) but he still managed to scream really loudly to frighten of the monkeys who then teleported back to the Istana.The wounds from the lasers did not kill him (like duh. ankles?) however Yoshinoya lost his balance and toppled into the Singapore river and was consequently smoothered to death by the toxic muck. A River tour boat came along carrying some tourists singing some songs although this is not related to the "story"His untimely demise caused the sky above Japan to shatter, and it so happened that Zeus had refused to pack up his two favourite toys the atomic bombs "big boy" and "little boy" the night before. Throwing a tantrum he left his toys on the sky above japan before going to watch World Wrestling Federation.The Japanese sky released the Toys onto the islands, while the Japanese people scurried about screaming for ultraman and doraemon to come and save them but to no avail. The mighty bombs split the island of japan assunder forever.Not until years later did Mika-san set about undoing her fathers deeds, pain-stakingly pasting the islands back with scotch-tape. Like her father she was hailed as a hero too but of a lesser degree."

Isn't that an amazing piece of literature?Haha~ Bravo!

*Claps hands spastically

If only history was as amusing as that.
Then perhaps all the history teachers in Singapore could be saved from being cursed.

I was in the foulest of mood earlier on, a mood darker than the blackest, most menacing looking clouds.
It foretells of the arrival of the angriest storm of the century.

But.
It blew over.

It's strange how six o'clock managed to alter my mood. Maybe it's not 6 o'clock, it's the walk and the sitting at the void deck that helps. Haha. That's a humourless laugh mind u, tt's y i put a fool-stop after the "haha". I know it's fullstop, but i felt like spelling it tt way. So sue me.

Work sucks like an electrolux vacuum cleaner. And mind u, nothing sucks like an electrolux, so, u can see how gruelling a day it was for me.

Something must have possessed me today. Suddenly I realised how much I detest certain types of people. It's strange u know, I never thot of myself as the fussy sort. I'm always easy-going and extremely tolerant of all forms of annoying behaviours. But today, something just snapped. Either that, or I've always been repressed. Anyway, two colleagues irritated the hell out of me. And they happen to be my immediate work mates. Gosh. This is hell. It makes that little she-devil so damn angelic instead, it actually made tuitioning her a walk in the park.

It's amazing u know, how the older some people get, the more loathful they become, how they managed to pick up all those disgusting traits that they do.

I've heard truckloads of times b4 that love is blind. But ur a married woman, for god's sake. The way you talk to him is just downright revolting. And hello? All day on the phone? He picks u up everyday after work somemore. I just don't understand. U chose to marry this man, and here u are outrageously reaching for another. He's already made his intentions so clear to u and ur still doing ur utmost to encourage him. Have u any common sense? And u wonder why I suddenly stuff up my ears with my earphones and stopped talking 2 u. First of all, have u ever respected me as a human being? U talk to me only when ur off the phone, and that's like wat? 5 minutes in all the 8.5hrs that we worked? And then, without a sign just ignore me and start talking to the other person. Now u get a taste of ur own medicine. I hope u choke on all its bitter glory.

And u. Shame on u ok, even kids own up to their mistakes. All u know is act, act, and act. Do u sleep easy at night?I hope with every cell in me that u don't. And that u get plagued with nightmares of every single rotten lie that u told, and every single innocent that u cheated. U can deny all u want, pretend all u want, but u know the truth. And I know the truth. It's there, everyday, in writting, plain for everyone to see. And u have the gall to ask me who wrote it, and u know wat's the most irritating? The way u keep asking me "how huh?" Go **** urself lah! How how how. Noone wants to admit , so the person who did it must be me ah, if not me then ghost ah? Quit looking at me with those deceptively innocent eyes and talking in that kiddy voice. U disgust me.

Phew~It feels marvelous to let it all out. All day I've been doing all I can to keep my frustrations in check. The night walk and cool breeze helped. But I think nothing is more therapeutic than letting it all out. I never realised that these character flaws bother me so much until today. U know I wonder, do they bother me because deep inside me, I'm like that as well? Someone once said that if u recognise certain characteristics in people and they irritated the hell outta u, it means these are parts of urself tt u hate as well.

*shudder
I hope not. I don't wanna be neurotic. And start talking to myself.

Hey hey!Aren't I doing that? Isn't everyone who blogs doing that?
Oh my god!!!There's a whole community doing just that!!
Ho shit. Blogger must be operated by a nutcase.
My god. What is the world coming to.

Mirror mirror on the wall,
Who's the fairest of them all?
beauty comes with an ugly price I tell ya. So, smart me has reverted (Look Jo!!!"REVERTED")to my plain flat hair, bespectacled self. Haha~wat m i saying?Guess Jo's expertise on crappology has rubbed off on me.

I caught THE BROTHERS GRIMM earlier on with an old friend.Err...small friend, no, young friend. Aiya!With an ah boy la!Aiyo!!!Made me feel so damn old !!!I tell ya, when I first saw him I almost couldn't recognise him!He looked so different in outside clothes. I'd expected him to look better in outside clothes, afterall, who doesn't?

Oh right. He doesn't.

I tell u, had he gone to work at Maybank dressed like that, the episode at KFC would have been avoided!!!It's all ur fault ah boy.Wahahaha~sorry, just kidding. To all leads involved in that exciting episode, I'm sorry. It's just that looking back now, it strikes me as damn hilarious. Please don't mind. I still love you!

The show was interesting. I've been wanting to catch it since I read about it in Cleo, but didn't manage to find kakis to watch it with. Seems as though I've lost all my arty farty friends. Hmm...It's so hard to get people leading different lives to do something together. It's life, I guess. Nevertheless, I appreciate this little boy coming out of nowhere, riding his white steed, with his aluminium armour(Haha~wat crap) and agreeing to catch this very chim show with me. THANKS AH BOY.At least I think it's chim. ok, maybe chim is not really the word for it. Maybe it's too literature for me to understand. It's been a long long since I touched lit I guess, but I really appreciate the ingenuity of the filmakers. All the fairytales are so nicely woven in there's not a single glitch. It's beautiful in a way. I never thought they could all be linked up and made to tell a different story all together. The film really managed to catch the essence of the tales, and I had a great time figuring out which parts corresponds to which story. And, and, their parody of French extravagence and romanticism was classic.

I've always loved fairytales. I think it's because they always end so happily. So...impossible. If only it were real. U know what's my favourite fairytale? It's Cinderella. I think it's one of the simplest stories ever written. It is so simple it is powerful. It is so simple, that's why it's so comprehendable, and it really captures the worst of humankind, ok, more like the worst of womankind and the stupidity in men. Haha~ Even in fairytales, there are lessons to be learnt. That's why mothers read them to their children, and that's why everyone who's been a kid b4 knows them. Just examine carefully and u'll notice Gluttony(the wolf in little red riding hood), Jealousy(the freaking ugly queen in Snow white and the seven dwarves), Sloth(the fucgly stepmother and stepsisters in Cinderella),Avarice(rumplestilskin-I really don't know how to spell this), Pride(the princess and the frog), Anger(the witches in Sleeping beauty), Lust(the prince in The little mermaid. ehh...provided it is a fairytale lah)etc. (I actually wrote "etc" cos I've been wracking my brain for egs of pride and my brain seemed to malfunction leh, no results whatsoever). It's fascinating isn't it, the ideal world they always seem to portray? Somehow, the good always end happily and the bad, unhappily. The desired land and state of things.

Perhaps it is this great difference between that world and ours that makes fairytales live in eternity, in popularity.

It's stay home sunday!!

Just read an e-mail from a faraway friend late last night, or rather, earlier this morning (like 2 sth ), and she helped put things into perspective, I guess. Well, not that I was lost or wat b4 tt, but I guess, I was affected, what with watching everyone going on a different path from me and listening to so many different opinions on what I should, or should not have done.

It gets confusing, especially when they are voiced by people u consider terribly important in ur life.

Anyway, this friend, she went on a flight and flew far far away and well, it seems like she has matured alot over there. Proud of u!!And well, I think she detected sth while readin my blog, so, yeah, oh, wat was i about to say?right, She reminded me of the reasons why I decided wat i did.

U know, it's weird. I wonder if it says anything about my faith in myself. Or lack thereof, I'm not sure. But I think sometimes, actually it's most of the time, I'll come to a decision, feel proud of it, believe in it and really live it for a while.

And then, gradually, I'll start losing all that faith and optimism, and then, someone will come in and reassure me and suddenly, it's like, like, like my mp3 player being fed ENERGIZER batteries after the EVEREADY one runs flat! Somehow, I just can't retain that something to go on being happy with my decisions on my own.

Does it mean that I have a weak character?
Gosh i hope not.

I just hope that it means I'm
awfully,
adorably,
vulnerable. Haha~

It'll be October really really soon!Yippie!!!Finally!!!Time to sign up for my long anticipated guitar class!Then I wouldn't need to anyhow strum around at home, and be subjected to sarcastic remarks from my brother.

He's a pain in the ass. A really sharp one. The kind that really stings, stinks as well, come to think of it. A real,true-blue, thorough-bred BRAT.Haha~he'd kill me if he finds out about his profile divulged on my blog.

He deserves it ok!Seriously!

This afternoon I was just contentedly playing with my guitar(okok, it's dew's guitar, not mine, but I'll get one soon!Once I've made sure that this interest is for real, and that it's enduring) when he walked towards me, and then without even glancing at me,

TOSSED TWO FIVE-CENTS COINS AT ME

@#!&*!*# What the-!!!He's an ASSHOULE eh!Not only a normal asshole, but an ASSHOULE. U noe, like a higher level, more accomplished one. Argh!!!I wonder wat I did in my precious life to deserve this. People get wonderful brothers who buy them green tea when they are down, and I get this this this

THING.

My bunch of girlfriends just left my place awhile ago and I'm feeling happy : )

I have this sudden urge to move out and have my own place. It's more than just a matter of freedom. I guess, the girls didn't feel as comfortable with my family around. Imagine, if it's my own place, we could have had a stayover, do crazy things like talk into the night, go to Geylang for supper at 4 am....cool eh!Motivation motivation sia.

I'm tired, not much inspiration to write. So, I'm turning in, just wanna say that, I'm happy tonight. Nothing beats the company of old friends, people u are so comfortable with that u can just show them ur ugliest side, do the most disgusting things, and just disregard whatever image u try to portray outside. Let loose. It rocks.

I'm feelin so drunk on happiness now.
I wonder if being in love will get me to such a high.
Haha~I'm really sleepy.

sleep all, we sleep all day
Sleep all, we sleep all day
what will your mother think?
how will your father react?

if all is ground then you should go make a mountain out of air
if all is ground then you should go make a mountain out of air

It's been some time since I've had a busy weekend. It feels kinda good to have a busy weekend sometimes.
I think I kinda like it : )

Yesterday, I was supposed to go Ubin to cycle, but, well, sth came up and I had to miss it. Althoh it was a waste, I mean, hey~bonding time with colleagues leh!But still, well, no choice wat. Kinda wanna go Ubin sometime to see the changes. Heard the roads and dirt paths are not as tough to cycle as b4. Wonder if they still had the Ubin pig.

Or if Pricilla had a predecessor. Hmm...

Met up with Mu and Min last night. Somehow, things have changed among us. I suddenly felt stupid. Well, maybe not stupid, just left behind. Don't get me wong, I don't mean "drift apart" *rolls eyes, how shall I put it? They kept talking about "classical theories" and school, and, "business news", kinda made me feel uneducated, superficial, apathetic. It sucked lah. At one time I just smiled politely and zoned out. I'd like to say I'm sorry, but I guess I would be lying.

I'm not blaming anyone, I'm just making an observation, and a reflection on what happened last night.

I guess the good thing is, u people reminded me to wake up and keep abreast with current affairs, more intellectual stuff.

Hmm....I wonder if an education will turn people into snobs.

Once again, I'm not pointing fingers, I'm just making an observation, and a comparison with colleagues at work, and the "You" b4 u went into SIM, and wondering wat, or how I'll change when I eventually go into SIM next yr.

Annniiwaaaay, we finally FINALLY met up to celebrate the boys' belated bithdays today. Yay~Congrats Fairy I didn't keep u in my goldfish bowl for nothing!haha~Lame sia.

Anyway, it happened again.

I can't say I'm exactly pleased with the way the celebration went, but,I guess under the circumstances, it's the best we can do. The boys are still boys. Haha~they made me feel bad that I had to make them share the attention. I mean, when it was the girls' birthdays, we were the only stars but when it came to theirs, it was....bad. Sorry boys. Anyway, I hoped u liked to presents.

A friend wasn't able to join us. I was upset. I was so angry I wanted to hang up on her when she called. I was really pissed off. I think some things can be arranged if you really mean to make things happen. This was arranged like 2 weeks ago. I even confirmed it so many times with u. Wat do u want me say? Wat do u expect me to say when u gimmi a "reason" like that? I can't possibly ask u to b "unfillial".

Yet I can't find it in me to say "It's ok" to u when u apologised. But does it matter? I don't think u even noticed.
U claimed ur a sensitive person, but r u really? or r u just sensitive to ur own needs and feelings?

If so, r u sure the word should be "sensitive"?

I guess I'm really upset.

Funny, I think I actually feel better now. Haha~

There are some things going through my head now. Actually, there are alot of things going thru my head now, and I'm struggling to find a way to express myself.

Today set my doubts to rest. A few years back, someone dropped a bomb on me and forced me to make a decision. It was a tough one to make, but I made it nonetheless, with my head. From then on, I've always had doubts on whether or not I've made the right choice, whether I've let slip something wonderful that I might regret for the rest of my life. But today, I'm glad that I did what I did.

Remaining status quo was DEFINITELY better.
Some people are just meant to be friends, no matter the chemistry. I think the more chemistry two people have, the more they should just remain as friends. The level of expectations is lower, and u'll definitely be more forgivable towards your friends.

Isn't it better to always have something dangling there, a soft spot that will always be present, than to go ahead impulsively and end up frustrated and angry?

Anyway, today haha~I had the honour of seeing another funny expression. I always thought the expression of disbelief is funny, no matter whose face it is on.

We were teasing an "ah boy" at work. he's 17 this yr, reminds me of the other "ah boy". Anyway, we were teasing teasing loh, he was a good spot, told us alot of things about himself. Nowadays ah, the "ah boys" are really dangerous! They actually "upgrade". No longer are they interested in young meis meis. This one is deciding whether or not to pian a nurse.

Man~what is the world coming to?
And my colleague actually suggested to him to pian me!Crazy girl!

He actually attempted.
That imp. Had a death wish.

Anyway, then we started to share about our histories. More of like, they share their histories la. I'm just a polite listener. And haha~that's when the expressions of disbeliefs came up. For the last time, I wasn't lying ok? and ah boy, please, have a heart, don't play with the poor nurse k?

She isn't pretty enough to waste your time on anyway.

Wahaha~The office is definitely getting more fun!Yippie~

Gosh, I sounded like a crazed lunatic who is trying to fill her non-existent lovelife with others'.
I'm not ok, really can?

I'm not.
Really.
Really.
I really am not.
Hahahahahahahahaha~

Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
Slammed the door and said, " I'm sorry I, had a bad day again"
Spilled the coffee broke the shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Left a note and said "I'm sorry I, had a bad day again"

Just like the song, I had a rotten day today. Time was passing so bloody slowly at work today can!
Haiz, and I've yet to hear anything from call center.

But on second thoughts, I think there's another song that totally described my day. It's a chinese song that was composed by two very special people in my life. haha~two bundles of joy, to be exact.

ni de tou fa yi tuan zao (haiz, a mistake to change styling product man! The wax made my hair oilier and limper than it already is)
ni de girlfriend bi ni gao
ni de tortoise bi ni lao
zhe you you she me hao siao
ni mei you zip ur fly
ni hai you birdshit in ur eye (I almost kena birdshit today!)
ni bu yao xiang bu kai, ye mei she me hao cry

bei yu ling dao luo tang ji (my umbrella was useless against the rain today loh. Should have seen how pathetic i looked)
mang de bu neng fang a pi (haha~this one is contrary.I must have had too much onion omelette last night!)
you forgot to bring ur key
ur locked out and u really need to pee (It can't get any more accurate than this man!)

I was seriously locked out today when I returned from work!Unbelievable. Almost seven and that lousy excuse for a brother is still not home. Went "lan-ning" with his friends lah!And I had to squat outside my door and wait.

Bloody hell.

I should have used the toilet at HSBC b4 I left for home. It was horrible!Horrible I tell u. I haven't had such a horrible experience in a long while (the last time was a few years back when I've to hold back my err.."big business" from labrador park to serangoon. Gosh. My mum told me my whole face turned green.). I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. A part of me was so super pissed at my brother for staying out, while another part of me was just concentrating on holding back "what's about to escape".

And in a situation like this, with the rain and wind beating against me, a song actually came to me.
It's that "ni hai you wo" song. haha~really loser leh!How apt, I tell u. Seriously. But seriously, the song made the gloomy situation a thousand times brighter. I even ended up laughing. Haha~out on my corridor leh!Holdin my pee, cold and hungry, and I still ended up laughing.

I don't think there can ever be another theme song that will be more suitable than this.
I don't think there can ever be another "fellowship" that will be as wonderful as u all r.

I don't think there was ever a time that I missed my JC days, the fellowship as much as I do now, right at this moment.

I was on my way hm from hell(tuition) when I crossed the road and suddenly saw the sign on the coffeeshop. Haha~It's the signboad lah, and it's pretty big so u can't miss it. I don't know y I never noticed it until today, but it read:

CHEE HONG

Damn funny. Turned me into a crazy monkey. I just burst out laughing. By myself leh!siao loh!pple actually turned and looked at me can!!So malu : p

Anyway, I think it's quite an adventure today lah, cos later near my place as I alighted from the bus, this mentally handicapped person asked me for the time. I told him it's 5 minutes to 4 and showed him my watch, in case he doesn't understand. Then he suddenly grabbed my hand. Initially he just shook it. So I just smiled and let him be. Then he suddenly took my hand and raised it to his mouth!Oh god!I really freaked out and jerked my hand back. I was really shocked, and I just reacted instinctively. I don't know why, but the thought just raced across my mind : what if he spread some horrible disease to me?

Goodness. It's a revelation to me. I mean, I knew I am a selfish person, but I never realised the extent of my selfishness. Gosh. I never thought I could be THAT mean. But I am. Really. It's sad, but, well, friends, now u've seen my true colours. I realise that he probably just wants to express his thanks in the only way he knew but at that moment, I just wanted to, I don't know, I just jerked away. Oh my god. I can't even begin to imagine what my expression looked like.

Gosh. I suck.
Like totally. If I had time to think it through, I probably would not have reacted as i did. Or at least I could have put on a more amicable expression even as I withdrew from him. tsk. SUUUUUUUUUUcks.

First things first. Happy birthday to daena. I wanted to be early, cos I'm not sure of the time difference between singapore and the U.S so, happy birthday. I miss u.

I met someone last night. He took my breath away. He's called Jon J. Think he's a mixed breed. Haha~

Went Pubbing last night. It's an experience that I definitely enjoy. Think I very cao lao. Too old 4 my age. I actually dislike clubbing and ktv pubs, but I love the real kinda pubs, where it's quieter, more laidback, where there's a live band, with a really cute lead!!Haha~Anyway, yah...my experience. Yesterday night felt like I entered another phase of my life.It's the first time that I actually went to an "entertainment place" or so to speak. The rest of them felt so in place there. So comfortable, but me...errr...when asked what I would like to drink, I actually replied "ice lemon tea"?

The whole gang looked at me in utter silence.

*gag

malu sia

I ended up with a bottle of heineken. I didn't want to test my alcohol limit. Afterall first time to that kind of place. It's better to play safe. No matter what, I'm still a girl. Ought to look out for myself mah.

The pub's name is Barcelona. Located at robertson quay, fraser street or sth. Near the DBS arts centre. Oh!btw, Harold Pinter has got a play on show there. Anyway, yah, I like it there loh. haha~Jon J.....he took my breath away eh! first time I've felt like that. I spoke to mu just now, and I was telling her my dillemma.

Actually, it's all pretty clear cut to me. It is just mu who keeps saying I contradict myself. I was trying to define the type of relationship I would like to have with him. Ok, it's like, I think he's amazing, and I would like to talk to him. But at the same time, I'd like a certain distance. It's something like the relationship that a passenger shares with a cab driver.

U know, when it's late at night and u take a cab home, sometimes u'll meet really nice cabby uncles who will share with u about their family, their life stories, and u share urs with them. All said, and yet, no numbers, no names. The level of annonimity is there, the distance is there, and yet, it's an open kind of sharing. I did not want to introduce myself to him last night, not because I'm shy or scared. I just wanted to retain some space for the imagination. Most often than not, the most beautiful people in life are those that U don't know. Because u don't know about them, tt's why u can imagine. Because u don't know about them, so u'll always be interested. Because u don't know about them, so u'll never be disappointed. That's the kind of relationship i'd like to have with him. the there-yet-not-there kinda bond. He's the first person that I felt so strongly for, on sight. I'm a rather cautious person, but, well, haha~maybe i drank too much last night. Maybe it's the dim lighting. Maybe it's his voice. I don't know. But he made me wake up with a smile on my face, the memory of him in my head. : )

haha. M i an love? Think i'm in lust. woohoo~

Okok., b4 anyone starts wondering if I've gone stark raving mad, I'd like to say sth, I m weird. I have weird thoughts going thru my head every minute. But that doesn't mean I'll start chopping up pple and disposing of them at different places.

I'd probably just chop them up and just make them into har kaos. yumyum.

Had alot of so-called "contact" with urine recently.

I was in the toilet at HSBC today, minding my own mini business when I heard a steady rythm coming from the cubicle beside me. It sounded like a drizzle of rain against a tin roof, and I was so...amazed! Haha~A thought crossed my mind then: Hey!I didn't know tt we can use the sound of urine to identify a person! But in the next minute, the mystery person left the cubicle and a newcomer took her place, and guess what? The sound of her urine is exactly the same as the previous one!!!

Damn! There goes my discovery of the century.

Since we are on the subject of urine, allow me to share with you something my mother said to me late, LATE yesterday night. It cracked me up so bad that I actually lost sleep! She actually said (these are her exact words, mind you!)

"I think I'm sick. My urine is smelly"

Haha~She's nuts man! I know I'm mean to not console her, but I just can't help it, I replied

"yah...I think so too. Cos my urine is extremely fragrant~ I think it smells something like black chicken soup. Everytime I pee, I have an overwhelming urge to dunk my head into the toilet bowl and slurp it all up"

Haha~My mother and I. Wat can I say? I just love her so.

GASP! I think I must have inherited some of her genes.

Doctor Jerkyll and Mr Hide strikes again!

I was pretty pissed at my P5 kid recently. She's getting lazy and arrogantly complacent. I mean, complacency is not a crime, but u;ve got to be at least scoring for ur exams b4 u've the right to b complacent wat!And she's barely passing! But, today, d little imp surprised me with a teachers' day card! It is so utterly sweet of her to do that!Haha~ Melted my heart totally.

"Hope you have all the best 4 ur future! And thanks 4 all those precious moments and thoughts that you've shared with me!" It read. So sweet and sincere isn't it? Although the english is. . . durh~but still, she wrote it :)
I think I can finally understand y some pple choose to go into teaching as a career. Kids r a lovely bunch of pple. So pure and innocent. Impish at times, but tt's part of their attractiveness and uniqueness. It would be so wonderful if everone can be lidat and not grow up. Haha~ Heaven!!!

OKOK, tt's just for today, I'm sure I'll be feeling murderous come Wednesday. Grrrr!!!!!!!!

oops!gotta go!I've got a date with a vampire!haha~

I'm royally pissed.

I wrote a whole deal about my first experience with porn (40 days and 40 nights) and my critique of the movie.
And it disappeared.

I guess I'm not fated to share it online. Maybe it's the "cybernanny" at work.

Anyway, I'm pissed. I don't feel like writting anymore. It's like later I repeat again, and then all gone again!Wasted my brain cells. It's just like wat Mraz says " we've only got that much brain cells to waste"

I know I got the lyrics wromg. One day I'll correct it. But right now, I'm pissed so let mi be. Just wanna go to the point now. Ewe, I wrote alot abt u too, but it's gone.

GONE

so i'll just skip all the frills and lace and tell it to u. There r no problems between us.
Quit worrying ur pretty little head over non-existent issues.
If u've got brain cells to spare, I'd rather u put it to good use creating love stories/troubles for our entertainment.

Thank u very much :)

SUUUUUUCks leh!I wrote so much nice things and it's all gone!N the feeling's gone so I can't write it out again!It bloody sucks!

Today I have decided to release my friends from their bubble of annonimity!yay~

Anyway, Jo inspired me to say something today.

I've always thought tt Cancerians are soft-spoken, timid, sensitive creatures who always choose to run instead of fight, but she has proven me wrong. I've also always believed that about myself. Maybe that's why I've never thought of taking charge and deciding on things that I ought to, instead, I've always let others do that for me.It's about time I stand up for myself, and what I believe. And be happy with my choices. Cancerians may be soft on the outside, but we have tremendous inner strength. And we are often the toughest of the lot. Crying easily doesn't mean that we are weak, it just means that we are confident enough to be vulnerable. Just because we laugh easily and appear happy doesn't mean we do not have a care in the world, it just means that we prefer to shoulder our problems ourselves. There are alot of things that we prefer to leave unsaid. But that doesn't mean that we don't think about them day and night, and that doesn't mean that you are right. It's just that we prefer you to recognise it and salvage the damages, out of your own will and not feel obliged.

I always say that I'm ok, but that doesn't mean that I really am.It just means that I am on the road of recovery.

I always say "no". But it's a habit of mine.It's a defense mechanism that I've picked up from my last heartbreak. But that doesn't mean that I really don't want anything from you. I do, but it's up to you to sense what I want, up to you to sense how to give it to me.

Because I'm scared.
I don't want to make a fool out of myself ever again.

Haha~Cancerians are a pain in the ass.

Teachers' Day eve. Somehow, it feels different when you r no longer a student. Went back to NYJC today with my two army friends and the school was so darn empty! Macham haunted lidat!Haha~I think we went back too late. But the thing is, I also don't know wat the thing is. Anyway, was unable to get my gal pals along. Uni life, very busy.

BUSY,BUSY,BUSY.
Four letter word.

Everyone is busy. The 2 army men are damn tired yet they made it. One of them even has to go for physiotherapy can? I'm also busy, never go work, no money loh~ but I thot however busy u are, if something really is important, u'll make time for it.

Busy is just an excuse to take time away from doing something, to do something else.
But anyway, tt's just my opinion, no hard feeling dears : ) I still love u pple, it's just tt, I hope u guys will spare us poor low-life JC education pple a teeny weeny bit of ur time.
I guess I just miss u guys. or rather GIRLS. Take care. Don't play or study too hard.

Anyway, last night, I just realised something. I just realised how VERY important I am to some pple.
Or rather,how UNIMPORTANT I am to TWO pple.

One of them had the bloody gall to just call me up on the pretext of chatting just to ask me about english and grammar.Told me that she will call me back after she had an in-coming call but never did.

Girl, if there's one thing I hate more than hypocrites, oily pple, cockroaches, lizards and my brother falling onto my lap, it's being lied to! It makes me feel like a fool for believing u.Bitch!

The second one made me listen to her flirt on her handphone. If for some reason I fail to mention tt to her last night, I'll do so now.

IT'S NOT JUST IRRITATING, IT'S TA-MA-DE IRRATING.
It made me wonder where she placed her basic courtesy. And who talked to me about basic courtesy last night?

Cha-bo, please lah, if u r going to flirt for 1/2 hr on ur hp with a senior who is a practical stranger, the least u could do is excuse urself for 1/2 a minute and lemmi noe, I'll just hang up graciously!Had ur senior not reminded u of my existence on ur house ph, god knows how much more repulsive amateur flirting I've to endure. Contrary to u, I do have my own code of courteous behavior and I'm not used to hanging up on pple who asked me to "wait awhile". But please don't abuse it ok?

I think I am like Doctor Jerkyll and Mr Hide.
Haha~Ask anyone and they'll tell u I'm a nice person who will always say,"It's ok, nevermind, I understand" In fact I did say tt to all of the girls mentioned here, it's just tt, I too feel irritated sometimes. I do get pissed off. I'm just human.

Just because I'm nice and easy-going doesn't mean that I enjoyed beng bullied.
Just because I don't like to make pple feel bad doesn't mean that I like to give in all the time.