It's stay home sunday!!

Just read an e-mail from a faraway friend late last night, or rather, earlier this morning (like 2 sth ), and she helped put things into perspective, I guess. Well, not that I was lost or wat b4 tt, but I guess, I was affected, what with watching everyone going on a different path from me and listening to so many different opinions on what I should, or should not have done.

It gets confusing, especially when they are voiced by people u consider terribly important in ur life.

Anyway, this friend, she went on a flight and flew far far away and well, it seems like she has matured alot over there. Proud of u!!And well, I think she detected sth while readin my blog, so, yeah, oh, wat was i about to say?right, She reminded me of the reasons why I decided wat i did.

U know, it's weird. I wonder if it says anything about my faith in myself. Or lack thereof, I'm not sure. But I think sometimes, actually it's most of the time, I'll come to a decision, feel proud of it, believe in it and really live it for a while.

And then, gradually, I'll start losing all that faith and optimism, and then, someone will come in and reassure me and suddenly, it's like, like, like my mp3 player being fed ENERGIZER batteries after the EVEREADY one runs flat! Somehow, I just can't retain that something to go on being happy with my decisions on my own.

Does it mean that I have a weak character?
Gosh i hope not.

I just hope that it means I'm
awfully,
adorably,
vulnerable. Haha~

It'll be October really really soon!Yippie!!!Finally!!!Time to sign up for my long anticipated guitar class!Then I wouldn't need to anyhow strum around at home, and be subjected to sarcastic remarks from my brother.

He's a pain in the ass. A really sharp one. The kind that really stings, stinks as well, come to think of it. A real,true-blue, thorough-bred BRAT.Haha~he'd kill me if he finds out about his profile divulged on my blog.

He deserves it ok!Seriously!

This afternoon I was just contentedly playing with my guitar(okok, it's dew's guitar, not mine, but I'll get one soon!Once I've made sure that this interest is for real, and that it's enduring) when he walked towards me, and then without even glancing at me,

TOSSED TWO FIVE-CENTS COINS AT ME

@#!&*!*# What the-!!!He's an ASSHOULE eh!Not only a normal asshole, but an ASSHOULE. U noe, like a higher level, more accomplished one. Argh!!!I wonder wat I did in my precious life to deserve this. People get wonderful brothers who buy them green tea when they are down, and I get this this this

THING.