First things first. Happy birthday to daena. I wanted to be early, cos I'm not sure of the time difference between singapore and the U.S so, happy birthday. I miss u.

I met someone last night. He took my breath away. He's called Jon J. Think he's a mixed breed. Haha~

Went Pubbing last night. It's an experience that I definitely enjoy. Think I very cao lao. Too old 4 my age. I actually dislike clubbing and ktv pubs, but I love the real kinda pubs, where it's quieter, more laidback, where there's a live band, with a really cute lead!!Haha~Anyway, yah...my experience. Yesterday night felt like I entered another phase of my life.It's the first time that I actually went to an "entertainment place" or so to speak. The rest of them felt so in place there. So comfortable, but me...errr...when asked what I would like to drink, I actually replied "ice lemon tea"?

The whole gang looked at me in utter silence.

*gag

malu sia

I ended up with a bottle of heineken. I didn't want to test my alcohol limit. Afterall first time to that kind of place. It's better to play safe. No matter what, I'm still a girl. Ought to look out for myself mah.

The pub's name is Barcelona. Located at robertson quay, fraser street or sth. Near the DBS arts centre. Oh!btw, Harold Pinter has got a play on show there. Anyway, yah, I like it there loh. haha~Jon J.....he took my breath away eh! first time I've felt like that. I spoke to mu just now, and I was telling her my dillemma.

Actually, it's all pretty clear cut to me. It is just mu who keeps saying I contradict myself. I was trying to define the type of relationship I would like to have with him. Ok, it's like, I think he's amazing, and I would like to talk to him. But at the same time, I'd like a certain distance. It's something like the relationship that a passenger shares with a cab driver.

U know, when it's late at night and u take a cab home, sometimes u'll meet really nice cabby uncles who will share with u about their family, their life stories, and u share urs with them. All said, and yet, no numbers, no names. The level of annonimity is there, the distance is there, and yet, it's an open kind of sharing. I did not want to introduce myself to him last night, not because I'm shy or scared. I just wanted to retain some space for the imagination. Most often than not, the most beautiful people in life are those that U don't know. Because u don't know about them, tt's why u can imagine. Because u don't know about them, so u'll always be interested. Because u don't know about them, so u'll never be disappointed. That's the kind of relationship i'd like to have with him. the there-yet-not-there kinda bond. He's the first person that I felt so strongly for, on sight. I'm a rather cautious person, but, well, haha~maybe i drank too much last night. Maybe it's the dim lighting. Maybe it's his voice. I don't know. But he made me wake up with a smile on my face, the memory of him in my head. : )

haha. M i an love? Think i'm in lust. woohoo~

Okok., b4 anyone starts wondering if I've gone stark raving mad, I'd like to say sth, I m weird. I have weird thoughts going thru my head every minute. But that doesn't mean I'll start chopping up pple and disposing of them at different places.

I'd probably just chop them up and just make them into har kaos. yumyum.