The young at heart tells the young last friday that she's behaving too old for her age.
The young at heart says that for someone that young,
she shd be out with guys,
zealous in the pursuit of joy and experimentation.
She shd not talk as if she's been in numerous relationships
She shd not talk as if she's suffered numerous burns before.

The young told the young at heart a story that day.
A story of a teenage girl who,
having discovered a picture of her mother in her twenties,
began a conversation,
which started out light-hearted and ended melancholic.

The teenage girl exclaimed to her mother that she was crazily gorgeous in her younger days.
And her mother,
as usual,
replied "yeah, I know. Till now, I've always why I married ur dad."
The teenage girl broke out in laughter.

Although she knows that such exchanges always ends with her mother repeating the same lines,
she laughs every single time.

But this time,
her mother grew serious.

"You know, the reason I married ur dad...was because I had no other choice"

The teenage girl laughed.

"Oh yeah? I thought u always said that u haf countless admirers vying for ur attention ALL THE TIME"

"That was when I was younger. By the time I was thirty-two, I was considered left on the shelf. Your dad appeared at the right time, so well, we got married.

Don't keep saying that ur not gonna get married.
Don't keep having the mentality that u wanna remain single.
I used to believe in that,
when I was younger,
when life was vibrant and I believed that I can do anything.

Before you know it,
all the beauty has faded,
all the opportunities that cld've been have alrdy come and gone
and when u begin to realise that all ur friends have begun a new chapter of their lives,
when whenevr u meet up,
u realise that u no longer fit into their circle of conversation,
u don't haf much choices left"

Her mother looked sadly at the picture of her youth,
smiling back at her,
frozen in eternity.

The teenage girl used to believe that her parents love each other.
Naively,
she only thought that with time,
love merely mellowed into a form of obligation,
a form of responsibility.

Maybe more like a slow burning fire in the fireplace,
the kind that warms gently,
instead of the fireworks kind,
or an inferno that engulfs the whole being,
making them feel truly alive.

"If you're really determined to be alone all ur life,
u've gotta really be prepared.
U'll regret it if u give in to loneliness.
U noe,
if I not for ur brother and u,
I think I wld haf left ur dad a long time ago"

The young believes that it doesn't take being in a relationship to learn lessons.
She believes that stories would do as well.

The world,
unlike popular beliefs,
is not like a fairytale.

Explosions of fireworks are beautiful,
but short-lived.
What's the point of owning such beauties when you know that they won't last?
They'll merely melt away
until all that's left is the blinding dark that's the night itself,
leavin you wanting more.
Even if someone manages to capture it for you,
it's merely an illusion of the real thing.

It does not take a wrecked marriage,
or many failed relationships for a person to see the fruitlessness of such pursuits.
The young admires the young at heart,
for her courage to keep trying,
despite the painful precedence set by her parents.

But then again,
the young does see the effects in the young at heart.
For despite all the courage she possesses,
enabling her to jump into all these relationships,
she carries with her the mentality
"I'll make it good, while it last"
She neither believes in the sanctity of marriage,
nor the eternity of the frivolous emotion called love.

So until someone manages to keep giving the young fireworks,
or until she learns to be self-contented and live with the attitude that the young at heart advocates,
no fireworks for her.

Truth be told,
neither the young at heart,
nor the young,
is really THAT young after all.

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Now on a lighter note,
a little update on what zee thought of as a very "happening life".

Sunday was spent curled up in bed cos I was dead sick.
Either that,
or POA is just damn boring.
But then again,
since I woke up today sounding like a toad,
I suppose it isn't POA.....

On sat,
Galpals and I trained down to Chinatown to satisfy galpal 1's craving for authentic korean food.
It's super good!!
But the most important thing is,
it's super economical!!!
Highly recommended for poor students like us!!


The pictures made it look like we had a feast,
but in honest truth.....


yeah, we had a feast.
Do not believe it when someone tries to convince u tt guys eat more than girls.
Trust me, the 3 of us polished off EVERYTHING on tt table,
plus deserts that weren't....

And talk abt coincidence,
we even caught a few familiar faces ard.
There was Lia*** in masquerade.
*girls, I went to stalk her blog, AGAIN. And I'm VERY convinced tt it IS her!!!

Then there's newname's fren, lookin uber dashing in tt pose of his!!


Now check out tt uneven tan on his arms!!!ooh~Sexy!!
Galpal darlin, r u sure d story of faye and ah qin won't happen?
I'll try my best not to guess his choice of dinner so accurately k?

On next,

we had a really difficult time locating him,
but we eventually spotted da tou!


k, k, tt isn't really him,
it's just tt in the beginning,
we THOUGHT it was he.


This is he.
Now darlin galpal, r u sure the story of Big S and Zai zai ain't gonna happen to u?

lol~

Wed evening was spent eventfully on my first trip to Zouk!!
Spank spank was disappointed tt he didn't manage to b the one to share my first time there.
oh well,
I know he isn't a petty dude when he surprised me with a huge hug from the back today,
making my day :)
Back to Wed.

It was a long long time since I last clubbed.
Feelin was just as shiok!
It was as I've remembered.
The feeling of "no rules",
of liberation,
of just whiling the night away,
drink and dance
drink and dance.

Meaningless,
brainless,
just a sea of bodies bobbing to the beat.

Wo was as wonderful company as I remembered.
Her "highness" was contagious and her quirky moves hilarious!
But above all, it was her ATTITUDE tt rocks balls man!!
dear wo, don't feel paiseh abt ur dance moves k? They've got PERSONALITY and INDIVIDUALITY. Besides, u managed to dian the ah pui~ LOL!!!
Let's make these night outs a regular in our busy busy lives yah?
Afterall, if we're not going to party the night away while we're young,
are we gonna do this only when we're old? :p

First time clubbing with da tou.
I was a little worried initially.
And as the night wore on,
I got even more worried.
Cuties at Zouk kept me entertained for awhile,
but watchin the cutsy in black striped shirt mumbling away the forbidden word "SIAN"
with a emo look on his face tore at me.
Thanks for not being a bitch abt it tou!!
Besides the occasional complaint tt he had to pay entrance fees twice,
besides the time when he was lured away by the semi-drunk girl,
he was useful to have ard,
especially when there are jerks with roaming hands.

No pics of Wed cos none of us photographed well that night.
Will dress up in future, will also get WO to dress up in future!!
SOMBA!!

There were many firsts that wed.
Take the afternoon itself for example.

Galpal and I, together with our excited, apprehensive self,
met up at raffles place.

After searching around for awhile,
we finally found the place we were looking for.
It was a little ulu, but well, we were poor students,
what are we supposed to do?
After a while,
we found the courage to walk in.

It was much nicer than what we've expected.
The shock only came when we didn't get the double room that we requested for.
That was when trepidation built.
I mean, it was our virgin experience, and we thought,
with each other ard,
perhaps we wld feel more steadied,
ease the awkwardness,
and maybe,
even look out for one another.

Unfortunately,
it wasn't so.

We were led to individual rooms.
It was small and dimly lit,
sparsely furnished with a bath area, closet for our belongings,
and a bed.


And once I entered, I was told.

"This is ur panty, ur shower cap, tower.
The closet is for ur belongings.
Try to relax and get urself ready,
I'll be back in 15 min?"

Right, so where did galpal and I go tt Wed? What experience did we have? Stay tuned for more!!! Hey Gorgeous~ is on and I'm off to watch TV!!