The way we do anything is the way we do everything.

Every word that comes out of our mouth comes out for a reason,
we just have to look hard within ourselves for that reason.

When in doubt, always go for the one that leaves us feeling most uncomfortable.
Cos that's what we really want, yet are afraid to go for.

There is a learning in every single thing,
we just have to reflect hard enough to find that.
And in order to learn, we have to have the courage to put down our pride and let go,
tear down whatever defenses we erected, and just face ourselves.

And the most important thing is,
to train ourselves to be

aware.

To be aware of our thoughts,
physical sensation,
feelings.
Because, only then, can we make an informed decision,
a decision that is fair, and neutral,
that is non judgemental,
a decision that is a

choice

that we are willing to be responsible for.

a choice,

that we will really hold true to.

And yes, I'm sure I'm not making any sense to anyone but I just woke up today really wanting to put this down.

So, why am I feeling this way? (reflection)

*pause*

I'm feeling overwhelmed. I'm feeling, very unlike myself, and I'm really really looking forward to putting the tecniques into use.

How will this affect me in the way I think and do things in future? (generalisation)

*pause*

I honestly don't know, because, I always feel this way after trainin, and I get so "zen-ed" for awhile, b4 I return to my usual, "unaware" self.

Am I comfortable repeating what I've always done,
now knowing,
now aware that that is what I've always been doing? (Action)

*pause*

No. I want to change that. I want to always be aware, and always be practising the experential cycle,
and other stuff that I picked up.

Is there anything that I wld like to do about it? (Action pt 2)

*pause*

Yes, I shall wake up everyday grounding myself, and asking myself
"what wld I like to create for myself today?"
I shall train myself to be less stoned, no, I shd say, more alert, and aware and grasp every little seemingly insignificant thing that happen to me and use that to mentally debrief myself.And! I will look at pple like Ms C and Lye as goals instead of figures of intimidation, cos that's the way to improve myself.

Is that something that I'm willing to do? (Action pt 3)

*pause*

Yes. That is something that I will create for myself.

There!!Well done!! *Gives myself a pat on the shoulder*

I'm really digging the process aren't I?
Haha~

Heck! I'm proud of myself.