Yesterday wasn't exactly a success.

I was kinda disappointed.
I was disappointed with myself.
And I felt really sorry knowing that I was getting paid when the results didn't turn out as planned.

Of cos, rationally I know that I wasn't at fault.
I know that I did the best anyone could given the circumstances.
But still, I wished there was something I could've done to have prevented the chaos that broke out in the beginning.

*Sighs*
An incredible program wasted on people who don't appreciate the effort.
A program that is too matured and intense for the young minds.

IT SUCKS!!!

Kids are a real pain in the ass.

I never knew working with kids cld be so hard! Wat the hell man!!

"cheh cheh, he beat me!!"
*slaps hand to forehead and groans inwardly, this can't be happening to me*

"cheh cheh, he copy my ans!"
Then u fast fast finish and hand it in to me loh

"cheh cheh, u see?"
Yes dearie, I can SEE. Really, I can really see quite well, thank u

This is a real classic

"Huh?One group ah!Tt means got girls loh!Can don't want not!!!

Bloody hell.
Welcome to the real world, rats.

Guess wat?
The fairer sex share planet earth as well!
Isn't that the discovery of the century?

URGHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I could tear my hair out, rip my eyes out in frustration.

Hell.
I wish I really were super-biatch. *Supersonic nostrils,Blast ooooffffffffffffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!*

I guess I wasn't jokin when I said they drive me crazy.

Their energy level is incredible.
They get excited about every little thing!
Every little wrong thing.

URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

*Smiles*

But still, kids being kids, can be so incredibly sweet sometimes.
And the best thing is, u know they are so very genuine about it.

"cheh cheh,then u don't have food ah?"

"It's ok, I'm not hungry."

"nvm la, U can have mine"

*stunned*

"It's ok, it's ok, really. U have to eat. U've been running all over the place"

The next thing I know, two girls took off.
They returned awhile later and told me that they went to tell Lye that I had no snacks.

I was so touched can?
My goodness.
Never would I have expected that, especially when they've been giving me hell for the past few hours.

Lye once said that all humans are most confident when they were a baby.

I guess all humans are most genuine when they are babies too.
As humans grow older, as we become more sensible,
we tend to conceal ourselves from people,
build walls around ourselves, we don't show our true selves anymore.

And sometimes, as we learn to "behave" as we should (as per our age),
we curb our impulses,
simply because they are not right.
And as we condition ourselves to do "what is right",
to seek recognition,

we forget what is it that we really want.

We forget what is it that makes us special,

what defines us as individuals.

Yesterday's event made me sad.
I hated the way the teacher "conditioned" the kids.

As I was watching her, I felt like I was watching a dog trainer at work.
I hated that.

For heaven's sake, they are KIDS.

Flesh and blood,
people who will grow up to become thinking individuals,
people who will grow up to become like u and I

They are NOT animals.

And the education system talks about fostering creative thinking and innovation.
And they say Singaporean are such squares.
It just doesn't make sense to cut creativity off at its roots, and then try to re-grow it.

Oh yeah, and if anybody is thinkin of calling me a hum ji,
cos I *sighs dramatically* didn't take a pic with down down korkor,

Do it.