Saw this on a fren's blog.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=fairy+in+a+goldfish+bowl
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=fairy+in+a+goldfishbowl

Anybody who has anything to say abt me at all,
pls voice them at the above links.

Haha~

I watched the third installation of Final Destination yesterday.
And I realised tt for me, if I caught the first few installations, I die die will catch the next.
Even if reviews were not fantastic,
even if the 2nd installation already wasn't anything awesome.
But well, tt's just me,

I'm just someone who needs closure.

*shrugs*

Anyway, I just love the concept behind final destination,
maybe it's the lit student in me,
I just LOVE morbid concepts.

Sanity, or rather insanity thrills me,
Love, or rather, the flipside of it enthralls me,
Good, and evil, God and the Devil, they interest me(althoh I'm no christian)
And Death, it intrigues me.

And final destination explores about death's plan

"Death is not a figure, it's a force"

Interesting.

And I've always thot Death would look sth like Brad Pitt.

Deciphering clues as to how the characters will die is a new concept in the FD series.
(And well, tt's the ONLY new concept)

Viewers can expect alot of gross images,
althoh the gore factor isn't exactly puke-inducing,
But tt's due to the fact tt well, I've caught part 1 and 2, and well,
blood, blood and well, yeah, blood,(except the frying one, and the nail one.*thumbs up*)
the ways they died isn't exactly refreshing either, in fact, i think some of them are actually familiar.

I like the way the series brought up the idea of fate, of destiny and

"u can run but u can't hide" *gosh. Tt sounds like an enrique song*
"there's someone, someone behind u" *slaps hand to mouth to smother laugh*

the way it made me feel helpless.
It's not a comforting feeling, but well, it evoked a feeling of discomfort in me.
I like!

Horror movies shd be like tt, intellectual as well, and not just plain horror.

Only when horror movies are made lidat, will they be meaningful, and impactful wat!

I mean, wat's the point of scaring urself silly for only 2 hours?

I'd rather pay 9.50 and scare myself silly for months!!

Yesterday also hit me how small-townish Singapore is.
Shops close as early as 9.30 (TCC is an asshole)
And well, when u've bought a 5.20pm tix at 3+,
there is really nothing else to do then sit down at KFC and tok.

Or maybe, we're just pple on a budget :p

OHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
I ate Pepper Lunch for the 1st time yesterday.
Butter
Beef
Hot plate...it's sinful....
especially for a girl on a diet
(But hey,in case pple are wondering,I didn't finish the rice ok!!!
credit me for tt!)

It rocks.

Like, rock my world silly, ROCKS.

Oh well,
like I said b4, weekends are off-diet days.

And that is only fair.

Ice-skating and K-boxing was a blast yesterday!!!

WooHoo~~~~

Oh and guess wat?
I made a new fren!

People, please meet my new fren, Bruise.

If u think the one I sustained from the fall from council room window was huge,

I tell u, Bruise will be record-breaking.

Weeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~piak!

Visuals overkill.
Trespassers Beware.


One fine Wednesday morning,
a group of angels decided tt they've been trapped in heaven for too long...

"We're tired of paradise!!!" So says li mei,bird,cheryl and jas
So they went ice-skating!!!(on wobbly legs!!)
"I'm a damsel in distress!I need a prince-charming!" complains angel xinhui,
and in comes vegus!!!

Grateful to prince-not-charming for holding their hands while they challenge the Ice,
the angels decided to grant him a grp shot.
(on the condition tt he does not steal their show!)
Despite her hunger after the strenuous activity ,
angel limei remains alert...

and seems to have discovered a new species growing in her garden hut

"This may be the ans to all human's miseries!" she declares
And the courageous Angel Netty decides to conduct some experiment of her own...
"I wonder what how they will react if i smother them with my venomous breath...."

Not wanting to be outdone,

Angels Jas and Whiney decides to go all out for the human race as well!!!

After the experiment,

the angels have come to the conclusion tt this miracle thing tastes absolutely heavenly

and tt the humans on earth deserve a taste of heaven as well.

Even thoh it doesn't really do much for healing or health,

everyone deserves a little sinful taste of paradise once in a while.

And since it's discovered in a Garden hut,

and it is indeed a strange circular thing,

the angels decided to name it "pizza",

which stands for "weird circular" in angelic language.

Bless the angels~

Sometimes I wonder if flies do have higher IQ than us, mere humans.

There is this fly that is buzzing around me right now, that simply refuses to die.
It is as if, irritating me gives it divine happiness, and the meaning to life.

I shoved at it a million times for the past 30 minutes, and it just kept coming back,
and as if to taunt me,
flew even closer, that one time,
I thought it was going to land on my nose.

Anyway, I finally lost my cool and humanity and slapped it with my palms.
Thinkin that I had killed it, I opened my hands, and

There it goes again.

Buzzing around me.

So it is under such extreme provocation that I'm blogging right now.
Bear wit me- Oph!Die fly!Why don't u just go away!Leave me alone!!

&*^&%^%$

Feb's bbq last night was unexpectedly enjoyable.

It's like, after Raymond blogged about certain pple in council (me included),
it just drew the line ever clearer,
the segregation.

And all the while, it never once occurred to me to try and do sth to set things right.
I'm just so comfortable in my clique, with the teachers, yeah, bitching abt the others and stuff,
and heck caring the fact that they were bitchin about us.

OK, rather, bitchin abt them bitchin abt us.

It never crossed my mind tt the fault goes both ways.
It's always been "they this this this" "they that that that" so "why must I this this this?"
I guess it all boils down to the fact that I, although seeming to have forgotten it, still remember.

Council just, most of the time, never really strike me as one.
Only during council camp.

I guess it's because of the 1st teacher's day project ba.
I remember the intensity of the unhappiness I went thru.

I cried.

I went home.

I gave up on the project.

It just felt so damn unfair to me to shoulder the workload when I am not even in the adhoc.
I felt that there are so many irresponsible, untrustable pple in the council,
it felt so dangerous to me,
so threatening.

And after that, I just never opened up.
(Well, I've always been a cautious person, anyway)

Eventually, I found some pple whom I felt I cld trust.
(I did trust them, and well, thankfully my choice is right)

ANNNNNNNYYYYYYWAY~~~~~~~ To be on track.

Well, to cut a long story short, I distanced myself away,
and never intended to close the distance,
until I was dragged (kicking and screaming, and foaming in the mouth but!thankfully)
by Jas and netty to feb's.

And I'm glad I went : )
I don't know if one appearance helps,
but anyways I intend to put in effort to make it to the other gatherings as well,
bcos, yeah, well,
as we grow up, I realise that,

Hey! There are alot of worst pple out there!!!!
(Remember shooting that happened near my place?
Hell, the shooting that happened to my aunt's neighbour?)

And if I can find one who is remotely decent, I shd count my lucky stars.
And I've got a whole (ok, maybe not whole :p) council of remotely decent pple!
Yes, I will appreciate them : )

Oh crap.
Did I say I was happy I went?

Damn.
Did I mention the voice that put a spot in that experience?

I was just happy happy eating satay and catchin up with pple,
when suddenly this loud voice of a stranger interrupted.

"EEW GROSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!"

Ok,it was gross.

Fine. I was gross.

But it wasn't intentional!

It just slipped my mind that it wasn't my place,
and it was Feb's bbq,
which wasn't council exclusive.
So I just dipped my satay into the gravy, chatted, bit off part of it,
chatted somemore, then dipped my satay into the gravy again.

Okok!I know, it's damn unhygienic,and I wld have screamed too if someone else did tt.

BUT!!
BUT!!!

I'm also 100% sure that guy who screamed that, was completely knocked-out-drunk.

I don't care, we're even.

The way we do anything is the way we do everything.

Every word that comes out of our mouth comes out for a reason,
we just have to look hard within ourselves for that reason.

When in doubt, always go for the one that leaves us feeling most uncomfortable.
Cos that's what we really want, yet are afraid to go for.

There is a learning in every single thing,
we just have to reflect hard enough to find that.
And in order to learn, we have to have the courage to put down our pride and let go,
tear down whatever defenses we erected, and just face ourselves.

And the most important thing is,
to train ourselves to be

aware.

To be aware of our thoughts,
physical sensation,
feelings.
Because, only then, can we make an informed decision,
a decision that is fair, and neutral,
that is non judgemental,
a decision that is a

choice

that we are willing to be responsible for.

a choice,

that we will really hold true to.

And yes, I'm sure I'm not making any sense to anyone but I just woke up today really wanting to put this down.

So, why am I feeling this way? (reflection)

*pause*

I'm feeling overwhelmed. I'm feeling, very unlike myself, and I'm really really looking forward to putting the tecniques into use.

How will this affect me in the way I think and do things in future? (generalisation)

*pause*

I honestly don't know, because, I always feel this way after trainin, and I get so "zen-ed" for awhile, b4 I return to my usual, "unaware" self.

Am I comfortable repeating what I've always done,
now knowing,
now aware that that is what I've always been doing? (Action)

*pause*

No. I want to change that. I want to always be aware, and always be practising the experential cycle,
and other stuff that I picked up.

Is there anything that I wld like to do about it? (Action pt 2)

*pause*

Yes, I shall wake up everyday grounding myself, and asking myself
"what wld I like to create for myself today?"
I shall train myself to be less stoned, no, I shd say, more alert, and aware and grasp every little seemingly insignificant thing that happen to me and use that to mentally debrief myself.And! I will look at pple like Ms C and Lye as goals instead of figures of intimidation, cos that's the way to improve myself.

Is that something that I'm willing to do? (Action pt 3)

*pause*

Yes. That is something that I will create for myself.

There!!Well done!! *Gives myself a pat on the shoulder*

I'm really digging the process aren't I?
Haha~

Heck! I'm proud of myself.

I was at the airport yesterday.
And everytime I go there, there's just this feeling of loss and excitement that wells up in me.
I can't exactly explain, but as my bus approached the stop, I actually trembled.

I was still slightly trembling as I struggled to navigate my way around Changi Airport,
all the time, until I boarded the sky train.

*shrugs*

Anyway,

ANGEL RECEIVED A TIFFANY!!!

Goodness!! That little blueish-green box says it all,
wat a great person she's been and wat an even more wonderful person she'll become.
Angels gave her a mug with our pic on it,

yeah well, it's nothing as compared to the tiffany's but,

hello angel's best fren, she won't kiss ur tiffany, EVER!!!

But she kisses US everytime she drinks from that mug!!!

Wahaha~

It's the second time I'm sending someone off, and well,
I don't know how to put it, but,

yeah.

I will miss u, and ugly maggie too : )

ANYWAYS!!!!

stop with the mushy stuff already.

Yup, puffer fish...delusional flower crab who always mistakes herself as her sri lanka counterpart,Mei, underwear and James, Bird and the drumsticks, Netty and her smudged eyeliner, Honey Bunny and his...er...T-shirt..... Every single time at the airport is an entirely different experience.

I don't think I'm gonna be sending Mei Siang off 2ml.
Have a safe trip.
Seems as thoh everyone is leaving.

Hmm....

GET OUT OF THE PENSIVE MOOD ALREADY!

OK! In the mood of V day, since it's only 3 days away, here's one of my fave fave songs.

Get in the MOOOOOOOOOOOD~

Flower crab, get this song if u haven't already,

It's divine.

1000 things

And I'm, I'm over-joyed
And I'm, I'm over-loved
And I'm feeling lucky like a little boy
Who's hiding under covers
And looking to discover
Every way to play the part inside this darkened cave

The meaning of life, well it starts at the nightlight
Close your eyes and I hope you see mine

And I've,
Well I've seen a thousand things in one place
But I stopped my counting when I saw your face

Erasing memory, well I feel as though I've never seen a face before
Until I saw your eyes
And they're smiling back at me through my tears
I've been counting all these years,

Suddenly the thousand things I've seen were nothing more than dreams of
Of you and me

You and me
Quietly at a standstill now

Fortunately you will,
well you'll kiss me,
I will
I will kiss you back

Oh the fact of the matter is
And I don't know what the latter is,
oh no way

See, I've always wanted to kiss you
But I, I always wanted to run from you
Because I've always wanted to miss you
And I, I always wanted to comfort you

"Well I love my comfort foods,"
you said, while you always say,
"How do you do?"

Beautiful song. Anyone getting married soon?
Don't even think about using this song.

It's mine.
Exclusive.

Ok!
Ready set.........ur 5 minutes start now!
GO!

Last week was a blurry whirl of social activity.

Monday & Tuesday,
Chinese New Year. Need I say more?

Wednesday,
Struggle to get re-acquainted with reality-work.
By the way, have I mentioned it before?

It sucks.
And the least of which, are the paper cuts.

Imagine,
all those paper cuts, all the running ard the office,
all the frustrations of trying to make out customers' handwriting and demands,

and none of the cheques get credited into MY account.
Only the blame.

Oh, did I forget to mention?
It sucks.

That's why I fell sick on Thursday : )
I guess I really am allergic to work.

Thursday,
KTV session.
YESSSSSSSSSSSS!Have been having the urge for the loooooooooooongest time!
Althoh stupid me pulled a really stupid stunt to get an mc, and ended up not being in the best condition to maximise the session, but heck! It's only once in a blue moon that I sing lidat OKAY? So cherish it,

cos it's never going to happen again.
NEVER.

Doctor: So, what's wrong with u today?

Me: My nose is botherin me.

Doctor: Let me c wat's really wrong wit u 1st.
Cos a flu is normally only a sign of a bigger problem *smiles kindly *

She pronounces my lungs and throat "Quite alright" and my nose "pretty wet"

Doctor:It's alright!No problem. I'll cover u with leave today, rest well, and u'll b up and runnin 2ml.
No worries.

Phew~
My only worry is that she would call on my bluff of rubbing my nose furiously to get the mucus running.
And well, all I can say is there really is such a thing as karma.

My nose ran the whole day.
It was blocked.
I sounded awfully nasal.
And I went horribly off-tune, off-key.

Embarrassing.

Anyways!!!
Thursday ended with a fabulous dinner at pow sing (that place is really full of memories),
crazy fun with sparklers and my girls at a playground.

It was insane.

I felt as thoh the wind was blowing in my hair again,
the way it blew when I was just a little girl.

The liberty and indulgences of childhood, relived.

Friday,
bad bad me skipped guitar lesson.
Yes, I did. I never thot I would but I did.

Well, it was Ms-defy-her-and-die-pumping-Choong.
Wat is a girl supposed to do man?

Anyways!
It was a fab dinner which started out quite rocky.
I mean, how the hell do u expect me to carry a conversation when I'm seated at the end of the freaking long table, in between Desmond and Nat?

Ok, Nat wasn't the problem. I ended up crapping with him and Netty like nobody's business.
Oh yar!I need to clarify sths Nathaniel Kebab Tan.

1. I weighed a mere 47kg when u piggybacked me ok! I couldn't haf caused YOU, of all pple,
a sprained ankle.

2. I did not fart when u were piggy-backing me, asshole.

and

3. Your back isn't exactly the most comfortable back in the world

*makes an ugly scrunched-up face*

If u were to stumble upon my blog unconsciously, I hope u get the shock of ur life and
may the destruction of my reputation rests on ur guilty conscience forever!

*makes another ugly scunched-up face*

oh, where was I?
Right.
Dinner was followed by chilling out at the roof of suntec,
playing silly games and just having mindless fun : )

Of cos, and who can forget dear honeybunny, who drove to yishun following bus route

*smiles fondly*

"Eh Andre!Why the seatbelts at the back cannot use one?"

"Eh!Eh!Eh!Doooooonnn't!!!!They are new!Don't remove the plastic!"

Riiiiiight~
and they double-up as booby traps for unsuspecting females u pick up while clubbing too.
(oak-kay!I'm sounding very ungrateful) Even so, he's a really gr8 guy!Really!

Saturday,
Steamboat and managing a gambling den at uncle raymond's.

It was also revelation day. Let's see, wat did I learn?

1. Asri has big balls *oops*

"U got oranges?"
"I'm washing them now"

Not cool, Asri. Not cool.

2.Some people can't count, but is so well-versed in the art of subtlety

3 bus stops away...When someone says 3 bus stops away,

It freakin means u don't count the stop that u board, Dammit!!!

"I look at u, I think u don't eat much one lah hoh?"

*stares suspiciously at him* "U want my rice isit?"

"Heh heh!" *laughs heartily*

Men. Commandoes.
Dodos.

3. Some people doll up when....er-hem!Circumstances call for it.

U go girl!U don't look a day over 21 when u put all that paint on ur face.
U shd do tt more often u noe?

U noe I'm tokin to u : p

4. The emperor makes wise decisions

Yes, I will foreva just be xi gong.
wo shu de xin fu kou fu.
Haha~

The empress is just sooooooooo nice!!!
(Freakin good figure too~ *attempts to whistle, and yet again, fails miserably* )

Sunday,
Got my baby.

A Sony Ericsson K750i.
I know it's not a new model.
And I know there's like,no crazy ravings over it.
It's not breath-takingly beautiful
and it's not even compatible with my computer!

But, I just love it.
It's my baby!!!!

mummy loves you!!!!!!!!!! Muaks! *kisses and hugs*

Alrighty!!!5 minutes up!

Fairy in a goldfish bowl-OUT!!!

Who am I kidding?
I can type that fast, I'll be in the guinness book of records.