To make you feel my love

D A
When the rain is blowing in your face
C G
and the whole world is on your case
Em Bm
I would offer you a warm embrace

G A D
To make you feel my love

D A
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
C G
and there is no one there to dry ur tears
Em Bm
I could hold you for a million years

G A D
To make you feel my love

G D
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
Em A D
But I would never do you wrong
G D
I've known it from the moment that we met

Em A
No doubt in my mind where you belong

D A
Baby I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
C G
I'd go crawling down the avenue
Em Bm
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do

G A D
To make you feel my love

Solo: (Same as a verse)

G D
The storms are raging on the rollin' sea
Em A D
Down the highway of regret
G D
The winds of change are blowing wild and free

Em A
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

D A
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
C G
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Em Bm
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true

G A D
To make you feel my love

Outro: (Same as a verse)

Heh.
This is for u, my friend.
I'd wanted to keep it for myself actually,(song makes me melt!)

but heck lah!

Really,boy, just go get ur hands on this song and don't just say ur gonna pick up guitar,

DO IT !!!

Good luck : p ~

P/S: btw, purple fonts r guitar chords
I do soooo hope u have a singing voice *crosses fingers*
Oooh~So romantic!

I am so in high spirits I feel like singing at the top of my lungs!!!
And!! I don't give a damn if my voice breaks or I go off-tune, off-key~

Gong xi gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ah~
Gong xi gong xi gong xi ni~

Woohoo~~~

Josh Kelley rocks!!!!

I don't care if nobody's heard of him before!
and I don't give a damn if he's god-damned un-famous!

He just rocks my world

Upside down, inside out, whaaaatever!

Cos I belong to the best of u
and u belong to the things I do
and this song is how i remember u
cos I can tell u wat it's like to be gone
Ur an old time memory
Ur an old time memory

I am online today!!!!

Anyway, was just visiting old- old- old- old-put-in-a-corner-collect-spiderweb fellowship blog that we always say we will update (someday,maybe later : p) when I saw this

horrendous,
absolutely hideous,
grotesque,
puke-inducing

photo.

Goodness. Wat was I thinkin?
Apparently I wasn't. I really shda taken sab's advice then and posed nicely.

Or just smile nicely. *Sighs*

But then again, I remembered where we were on that day (when that fateful picture was taken), and the
silly days just brought a smile to my face : )

Until now, I still reckon the Tom Yam Fish Bee Hoon opposite zhss is the bestest Tom Yam Fish Bee Hoon in the entire world!!!!

I love tom yam~

*Disclaimer: Author isn't always this ditzy. She is usually witty, funny, and full of out-of-this-world-thoughts,
and until recently, bitchy. This entry was definitely made under the influence of trauma from seeing the remnants of her bank account.

Festive seasons are nothing but excuses for self-indulgent shopping sprees. Weeeeeeeee~

*Sighs*

Yesterday wasn't exactly a success.

I was kinda disappointed.
I was disappointed with myself.
And I felt really sorry knowing that I was getting paid when the results didn't turn out as planned.

Of cos, rationally I know that I wasn't at fault.
I know that I did the best anyone could given the circumstances.
But still, I wished there was something I could've done to have prevented the chaos that broke out in the beginning.

*Sighs*
An incredible program wasted on people who don't appreciate the effort.
A program that is too matured and intense for the young minds.

IT SUCKS!!!

Kids are a real pain in the ass.

I never knew working with kids cld be so hard! Wat the hell man!!

"cheh cheh, he beat me!!"
*slaps hand to forehead and groans inwardly, this can't be happening to me*

"cheh cheh, he copy my ans!"
Then u fast fast finish and hand it in to me loh

"cheh cheh, u see?"
Yes dearie, I can SEE. Really, I can really see quite well, thank u

This is a real classic

"Huh?One group ah!Tt means got girls loh!Can don't want not!!!

Bloody hell.
Welcome to the real world, rats.

Guess wat?
The fairer sex share planet earth as well!
Isn't that the discovery of the century?

URGHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I could tear my hair out, rip my eyes out in frustration.

Hell.
I wish I really were super-biatch. *Supersonic nostrils,Blast ooooffffffffffffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!*

I guess I wasn't jokin when I said they drive me crazy.

Their energy level is incredible.
They get excited about every little thing!
Every little wrong thing.

URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

*Smiles*

But still, kids being kids, can be so incredibly sweet sometimes.
And the best thing is, u know they are so very genuine about it.

"cheh cheh,then u don't have food ah?"

"It's ok, I'm not hungry."

"nvm la, U can have mine"

*stunned*

"It's ok, it's ok, really. U have to eat. U've been running all over the place"

The next thing I know, two girls took off.
They returned awhile later and told me that they went to tell Lye that I had no snacks.

I was so touched can?
My goodness.
Never would I have expected that, especially when they've been giving me hell for the past few hours.

Lye once said that all humans are most confident when they were a baby.

I guess all humans are most genuine when they are babies too.
As humans grow older, as we become more sensible,
we tend to conceal ourselves from people,
build walls around ourselves, we don't show our true selves anymore.

And sometimes, as we learn to "behave" as we should (as per our age),
we curb our impulses,
simply because they are not right.
And as we condition ourselves to do "what is right",
to seek recognition,

we forget what is it that we really want.

We forget what is it that makes us special,

what defines us as individuals.

Yesterday's event made me sad.
I hated the way the teacher "conditioned" the kids.

As I was watching her, I felt like I was watching a dog trainer at work.
I hated that.

For heaven's sake, they are KIDS.

Flesh and blood,
people who will grow up to become thinking individuals,
people who will grow up to become like u and I

They are NOT animals.

And the education system talks about fostering creative thinking and innovation.
And they say Singaporean are such squares.
It just doesn't make sense to cut creativity off at its roots, and then try to re-grow it.

Oh yeah, and if anybody is thinkin of calling me a hum ji,
cos I *sighs dramatically* didn't take a pic with down down korkor,

Do it.

I was reading long overdue e-mails (I'm sorry angels~) and yup, this may come too late but, still....just some thoughts (tt's y I tokin here, not e-mail,cos like so long liao, abit extra sia!!!!!!!!)

Love isn't a bed of roses.

When someone starts caing for another, one tend to become insecured.
It all stems from fear, fear of losing that someone someday.
Fear that all that investment of emotions would end up in only heartbreak and pain.
Because someone cares, someone opens himself up, and lets the other person in,

It is a big risk because he allows himself to be so completely vulnerable.
And sometimes, wondering about the day when he wld be dropped cld be more unbearable than being dropped.

But then again, this is the way the relationship game's supposed to be played.

I suppose he wld be on tenterhooks, but then it only makes it easier to make him happy.
Cos if he doesn't expect alot, then doing a teeny weeny thing cld give him alot of pleasure liao.
Heh. And of cos, deep down inside, the other party must be feelin damn shiok ah?

Revel in that girl!

But if it gets too demanding, a girl's gotta do wat a girl's gotta do.
If u get what I mean,
but still, as mean as I am, (keep harping on u pple to join the club) I wish u all the best.
It's hard to come across such a wonderful person : )

Alrighty!Here as deputy Vice-president, I hereby banned u girls from the club.
You pple are to make it work? Clear? No running to us OKAY!

On second thoughts, I beg to differ,

Love is a bed of roses.

Where the thorns are often forgotten until they prick u

Until they draw blood,
and u realise that,
all the while, u've just been sleeping in a dream

One speaks of perfect balance in the world,
for a rose to be without thorns, would deny its perfection
for nothing can be as perfect as when beauty and pain co-exists.

Perfection is nothing but the co-existence of both worlds,
with the good obscuring the bad.

Perfection is nothing but an illusion.

Yes!I've decided to save money now tt my nokia 7370 has hit the stores officially (Dunno if i got the numbers wrong)

Am lookin forward to tml, counting down the hours....
Let's see...abt 4,5 hrs until I rise and shine on the morrow.

Why?

For a new ph, I shall play Mr Scrooge and take public transport to Geylang Methodist Primary School.
Gotta be there by 6.45am ok?

SATURDAY LEH!!!!
(&^%^%$

Well, wat to do? I'm a sucker for events.

And of cos, down down korkor's a bonus. Hooha!
oh right, there's also 80 bucks

*Eyes turning into dollar signs*
*Ka-ching*

Alrighty!Bed's calling out to me.Gotta sleep before the pandas come out.

Until we meet again~

every step I take is a step closer to you.....

Riiiiiiiiight~ And I'm walkin towards my bed.

What am I saying man?
I don't know, I'm feeling wonky-tonky.

Does it matter?

Afterall, this isn't memoirs of a queen....
It is just the memoirs.........

of a silly, sleepy, girl.....

who looks too old for her age.

Don't get me started.

At the very beginning:

A woman forgives, but she never forgets.
She forgives really easily, but she doesn't forget.

She thought she got over it, but tonight, when it was brought up again,
she found herself perilously close to tears.

There was a time when she wished that he never calls, cos she wasn't sure she could be professional about it.
And she knows, if she lost it in front of him, she would get the "I told u so", which she hated with all her might.

But he did, and she did maintain her composure.
She was proud of that.

And then, she slowly began to return to her normal happy self.
She even managed to lunch with him, and even enjoy his company.

But tonight, she remembered again, the betrayal she felt.
She remembered the anger, so vividly, she saw her hand tremble, felt her body shaking.
She remembered what she went thru.
She remembered the internal battle she went thru.
She remembered the wait, the look on her boss's face,
the hope
the opportunity that seemed so within her grasp,
and she remembered the depressing days as hope diminishes,
she remembered the humiliation she went thru,

the look on her boss's face.

She remembered the misery when she felt that she betrayed her boss,
the boss whom she genuinely liked and respected,
the boss whom she felt genuinely appreciated her.
She remembered how bad she felt when her boss still remained as good to her.

And she started thinkin of revenge.
She started thinkin of things to say to him, to make him feel bad
to make him experience at least half of what she went thru.
to make him feel guilty
to make him regret

She really considered it.

And then she remembered the situation at that time,
and she saw him as someone betrayed.
She saw him as someone who became very cautious
unwilling to risk
She saw him as someone who was determined to be professional
and make sound decisions

and then she just decided, to let it be.
She just decided that life is just that, opportunities coming and going.
She might have lost a stepping stone, but along the way, opportunities will surface again,
and she will make damn sure she grabs everyone of them.

It was a long bus ride home.
And that's why she likes taking long bus rides alone.

It clears the mind.

I've always had something for long bus rides.
Long journey, alone, with my music, lookin out the window, as the world go by.

And thinkin, or not.

Yes, it's a stupid thing to have something for but I juz do.

So sue me. *Shrugs*

I've almost forgotten how it is like to work with Lye and the rest of the facilitators.

Amazing.

You know there are some people u know u can trust but yet afraid to open up to, becos they are so sensitive and intuitive they can read u like an open book?

These people make me feel threatened. They make me feel vulnerable.

Even thoh I know they are good people, they are extraordinary people who make me feel like I can never measure up, nor will I ever be good enuf.

It stresses me like hell.

Lye makes me feel that way. So does Ms Choong. But then again, It is also these same people who push my limits (Notice the sudden frequency in which "I" appears? Purposely edited away all the "u"s ok? self-responsibility at its best~*smirks*)

Lye worked his magic today again.

It amazes me to hear him talk about sitting positions and the choice of words and actions
It amazes me to hear about the program and the flexibility of his facilitating style

He made me realise that there truly is an art to facilitating. An art that is beyond superficial skills like cheering for example. Someone who has boundless energy and can cheer like nobody's business doesn't mean that he or she makes a good facilitator. It is the qualities in him or her that matters.

Qualities like confidence (know what's important, and not be afraid to sacrifice fun and displeasure for the bigger picture), dedication (to teaching of skills, and not, having fun), responsibility (ability to respond and think on the spot, self-responsibility and for others as well), fair acceptance (do not pass judgement. accept all for who they are, good or bad) etc. etc.

The only "superficial" skill, so-to-speak, that has to be taught, has to be knowledge in fundamental behavioral psychology. The creative thinkin and flexibility would come naturally after one has the confidence to think out of the box.

ARHHHH!!!!!I so wanna attend his 6 months facilitator training!!!

I wanna uncover more than just the tip of the iceberg!!!!

Bloody hell.

Why didn't this opportunity appear last yr when I had truckloads of time? *Sighs*

Of cos....there's also a pleasant surprise! Guess who made it to the program?

DOWNDOWN KOR KOR
*screams into the pillow uncontrollably*

without up up cheh cheh wor~Hmm...wonder wat happened.
Anyway, *shoves the kpo alter-ego aside* he is cuter now loh. And he was cute all along.
But even cute-TER now can!
Wat the hell man!Say he look like ape. He looks nothing,

NOTHIN like a pre-evolution man.

Neither does he look like Richard Benjamin Ananth *oops*

He is so freakin tanned! And he wore greyish blue contacts, no more glasses~ *swoons*

I almost died.

"Wah~So tanned~South African sia!Where did u go?"

"Wat South African? Stayed in hall study"

"Yeah rite, play mahjong loh"

"Mahjong!No loh, Study loh~"

Yes, I was happy jus tokin to him, in a way lah, with like a dozen people sittin in between us, and with us being like 100 metres away from each other.

And Li Mei has to spoil it

"Purposely one rite, u?"

Like obviiioooouussslyyyy? Durh~*rolls eyes in disbelief*

Oh yeah, the other twin tower was there too. It's like a big reunion man!Woohoo~
Oh yeah, so was Cougar guy, better not elbow me this time.

Elbow me again, I will poke ur eye!

*shakes head in pity* I should have choosen to facilitate the same game as he.

Stupid stupid. Always lidat.

But ok lah, at least I'm with my girls, plus

Desmond Loi Chin Wee, our dear dear alumni big shot.

Alright!Up with ur red light sabers everyone!

My goodness. He wore this dark brown t-shirt with the words

"Show me your tits, and I'll show u mine" in big, white, BOLD letters

*slaps a hand to my forehead in a mix of disgust and disbelief*

It is so not cool.
It is super childish and crude.
It is damn poseur.

It is so him.

Psychological Test
http://quizbox.com/personality/test6.aspx

You are easy going and carefree.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: top.
You are stubborn, the size of this personality as seen by others is small.
Glass means fragile personality.
You are also down-to-earth.
You are not an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble

Woo~I am one ambitious girl!And I'm so NOT stubborn.
Man, am I crossed. I would like to be stubborn!!!

Hmm...I think I seem like an extremely nice person.
A tad too delicate thoh. I mean, wat sia!!! "fragile personality"!!!

Emotion Test
http://quizbox.com/personality/test16.aspx

Your emotional controlled rate: 30%
You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should.
You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often.
When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.
Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

My god.If I let my emotions out more, I wld be an emotional wreck can?

What type of personality do you have?
http://quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

Hoho!!!! Yeah rite, I look TOO matured can?
28? 21? u gotta be kidding me!!

Journey to the Real You
http://quizbox.com/personality/test3.aspx

You have 12 true friends.
You will have 1 true love before getting married.
It is your work ethic that you rest for just a minute.
Here is the description of your ideal mate: "kind, elegant, gracious and confident"
MICHELLE is the person you will never get over for the rest of your life.
You give 70% in a relationship.

Shit.

I don't wanna be a lesbian.

I juz think mich fits into the setting most perfectly!!!
I can't imagine anyone else in the romantic- old- english- royalty- outfit,
okok, except maybe him,he'll make a nice knight : ) but then again *sighs* Mich wins so.....

Shit. shit. shit. shit.

The description of my ideal mate seems to fit mich too.

shit. shit. shit. shit.

Maybe I'm a closet lesbian.

Oh bloody hell.

No more personality tests!!!!!!!!

Hung zi yun. All ur fault ok!!!!
If my sexual orientation got problem, U'r gonna hafta marry mi,asshoule!!!!

I'm feeling nasty.
I'm feeling autistic.

And I don't know why.

Don't ask me what's wrong cos nothing's wrong.
Don't ask me what's bothering me, cos nothing is.

I'm just in one of my moods.

Just yesterday I threw an unintentional temper tantrum that I so so so soooooooo regretted.

U know how rare it is to run into an extremely nice superior?
One whom u can tok to like an equal?
One whom u feel absolutely no qualms about approaching whenever u run into a problem?
One whom even when u made a mistake, will be incredibly patient with u and sit down and solve the problem with u instead of jumping down ur throat?

Yup, I threw a temper tantrum at someone lidat : )
How sweet of me.

And "sorry" just happens to be so difficult to say.

Someone told me that I love to talk. And that's why I took to blogging.
I disagreed.
I told him that I like to be quiet sometimes. And at times, I don't even wanna be near pple. I just wanna be alone, absorbed in my own thoughts, in my own world.

Just...watching the world go by.

It's tiring to always be talking away, sharing part of myself with pple.
It's tiring especially when all I want to do, is just enjoy the moment.

*Sighs

I'm so crabby.

Oh wait.

I'm just being me : )

And so she said " I think U look better eh..."

To maintain my show of humility,
I resorted to blatant lying

"Aww...tt's sweet...but doesn't everyone look better when they r out of the uniform?"

But in my heart, I was like um chio tio lai siong (right daena?), and trying, trying not to appear flattered, when I'm like floating from my seat on the bus liao.Ok,ok, granted, I wasn't drop- dead gorgeous in the first place, and she probably only meant that

I look more human now.
Less likely to give an elderly a heart attack. Bloody hell.
But this sweet fren of mine, she was sooooo determined, she tossed another one my way.

"No, Joanne doesn't"

!!!!Hooerrrrrrrrrrr!!!!Kin sin's Joanne!!!Kin Sin's Joanne?
WOAH.

And so, yup, according to this friend of mine, I look better now.
NOW.

That was like 5 days ago.
Why do I suddenly mention this now?

Well....maybe I haven't seen her in such a long time, I'm trying to relive the sweet memories?
Well....maybe it's bcos the weather's kinda rainy recently....
and well...swimmin is so NOT feasible....

*Huge sigh as I watched my bulging tummy inflate and deflate with each breath

Okok, I'm just trying to make myself feel better.

Can't a girl just kid herself on her blog?!!!

Numbers make no meaning to me.

If u expect me to remember ur birthday, and are hurt bcos I don't, I really really really am sorry.
I can only apologise bcos, yeah, I really really feel damn bad. I know ur birthday is on 3rd Jan, but when the day arrives,

I just forgot.

It doesn't mean ur any less important to mi than the people whose birthdays I remember, I mean, hello~I remember

Lim Mumu-4th August
Ang DewDew/Mich-19th april
uh-hem-2nd April
wowo-somewhere in feb, I think?
Zy-ehhh...April isit?
Daena-Sept 11(cos of terrorist loh!)
Sab-Jan 30th, I think
Adam-somewhere in Sept
Kennth-think august baby....18th?
Chong Yew-August...3rd...or 5th...(1 day b4 or after mu's.I can't remember!!!!)
JasLim-July, cancerian
Angel-Dec Baby
Netty-Jan baby
Min- Jan 11
Ah Boy-July 11...(I think.Hey, it pays to remind me of someone ok?)
Volleyball cap/guowei-17th Feb(or isit 19th?)
etc.etc....

hello!!!!And some of their bdays I remember is cos they fall on significant dates, or got link loh, or got 2 pple's bday fall on same date, so convenient ma!!!
Compared to these pple, ur much luckier already ok???I really really really know urs fall on 3rd Jan!!
Even if I drink the meng po tang, I will still remember ok?

keke.

Sorry dear xiao pipi, i will make it up to u this sat. Promise, promise.

I will exhaust all my brain juice and turn retarded just to come up with the most creative birthday celebration for u yet!

*round of applause

But seriously, u've gotta gimmi an idea on what to get for u loh. It's damn damn damn bloody difficult.

At the risk of sounding like a paedophile....

I LOVE JERALD PAN JIAYONG!!!!!

great, now his mum's probably gonna fire me.

He's like seriously, the cutest thing alive,althoh between stich and him, I'd probably still choose stitch.

But it's a close call!!!

Jerald is soooooo like stitch, he is so incredibly cuddly. ok, not like I cuddled him b4 but, he's chubby and has small small eyes, and like super-duper tanned.

Besides the fact that he doesn't have fangs, can speak EXCEPTIONALLY good english, has 2 arms lesser than stitch and has spikes on his hair, instead of on his back, he bears a startling resemblance to stitch.

It's hard to imagine but yes, to mi, they are VERY alike.

And I insist.
Absolutely.

(Motivation to get a new phone so I can sneak a picture of him)

Oh yeah, and he doesn't slobber all over the place too.
Plus point : )

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Take this quiz at http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Heh. Blogging at somebody else's hse. quite a novel experience.
Well, boys will always be boys. Soccer...Games....XBOX.....

*Huge sigh

The last hours of 2005
-Chided by Ms Choong for being stupid
-Very stressful attempt at bill calculation, supervised by Ms Choong
-Almost killed myself, and Jasmine Lim Chiew Yi as well for being so incredibly dense
-Tried to tok Toe to do the dirty job for me *hands him the knife
-Finally saw the legendary James
-Embarked on self-destruction of my own image at harbourfront *Sighs and shakes head sadly
-SMSes!!!!!
-Cheek-to-cheek-kiss an over-friendly stranger

The first hours of 2006
-WAR!!!!!!!!
-Fireowrks
-I turned into a snowman, complete with frills and ribbons

"Eh?who's that pullin my t-shirt?HAHAHA!!!U ah!!!wat happened to u?"

What happened to me?Help u clear stocks ah asshoule!!No ammo my left toe!Least u cld've done was to take some of that snow for me can!!!

-Almost dying of fright, seeing someone kena asthma attack
-I fell *stupid platforms
-Sinful indulgence of supper *Chilli was damn "shiok" man!
-Painful self-realisation that I'm really, totally directionless *Hell, I dun even knoe the way home
-Oh yeah, and I fell, again *stupid stupid platforms
-Another assurance that I need to start using anti-aging products *21 yrs old....r u blind or juz plain dumb?

*Grinz

-Heck of an entertainment watching two women staking their claim on the front seat

*shiok ah, asshoule? Ah pa, ah ma?
-Mummy didn't call, at all. And we woke up happily sharing our own celebration of last night. I like!
*Huge smile, my new yr is indeed better