There must be something about work and men that doesn't agree with me.

Somehow, I've always had problems with male colleagues at work. And somehow, I've always have to lose my temper in order for them to take me seriously. What is it about me that make men go all chauvinistic and decide that they can push me around and deny me the same power over them?

Arghhh!!!!

In Maybank, there was bird man, who foolishly thot that a niao lei can out-talk me.

Hah!!Welcome to reality buddy!!!

And now, there is aNvi (how am i doing with my anagram so far?heheh~). I guess, he's not totally at fault. We can all understand how frustrated it must be like to be tossed around like a great white trout between departments, and finally being left on the floor to suffocate

and eventually rot

and stink

and smell,

with flies buzzing all around it

anyway, my point is, being neither here nor there(sorry, got carried away by the mental image of him turning into a half-fish and struggling for air on land, jumping up and down, flipping salty sea water inconsiderately on passers-by before dying an agonising death!!!Muahahaha~)

But still, if u expect people to drop everything on hand to do things for u, shouldn't u at least attempt to reciprocate the kindness? Or at the very minimum, avoid comments that will make people's blood boil,not only boil, but boil until it turns into gaseous form, can!! I wasn't angry that he can't call customer for me. I understand, or at least I try to understand the difficult situation that call centre's facing right now. What I'm unable to stand is the irresponsible thing that came out of that wretched mouth of his.

"So?I don't know. Not my problem" Not ur problem, not ur problem.

NOT YOUR PROBLEM.

I know, ur just trying to protect ur people, or wat's left of them, but, u have to understand, I also have to protect my people, especially a newbe who doesn't yet dare to chase u guys for our cases, sorry, for YOUR cases.

Ur people gave Us this case, excuse me, correct me if I'm wrong, but if it's not ur problem, should it be mine?

If u haven't yet realised, we've already stopped calling u guys up to help us contact customers regarding missing dates. Y? Have u ever wondered? Cos we kena-ed from our officer, when she realised that we are holding onto a ridiculous amount of overdue cheques. But did we even utter a word about that in front of u guys? All I'm asking for is just a modicum of appreciation, basic respect.

We are not tools to help u answer customers enquiries.
We are also like u, flesh and blood.
You can snap, so can we. (bloody hell, it sounds like some "yam-can-cook commercial)

I tell u, I felt a whole bloody damn better after I lost it on Jo during lunch and afterwards when that miserable sod called up. I think, upon hindsight, after I cooled down, I sort of regretted. I think, when I'm angry, when I'm really angry until I almost burst into tears that kind angry, I become incoherent. I just lose my ability to express myself. I'll be so consumed by that something waiting to burst out that my mind just malfunctioned.

I wasn't sure if he really understood the reason of my anger.
And that's a waste.
Cos, well, there won't be a better time to lay things on the table.

And that's me, always missing the right timing,

and dwelling on the could-have-beens.

I'm too impulsive for my own good. Too emotional.
I really think it's very humiliating to cry when ur trying to scold someone. And I don't understand why, but the angrier I get, the more I felt like crying.

And then, after that, I'll get this inexplicable urge to laugh.

Laugh until cry that kind.

I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it that I cannot get angry like normal people do!!

Arghhh!!!!What's wrong with me!!!

Work, it must be work.

Working is not for me.

So far I've had three real jobs.
And in all three, I just have to get into fights with male colleagues.

What's wrong with me!!!!