Somebody told me to avoid certain places when I whack people cos it actually cld cause internal injury.
I shall bear it in mind.

Somebody also told me that there are certain things that I do, which are, shall we say, mildly irritating, and people only tolerate it because they see me as being young.
I shall bear tt in mind too.

As of now, I think I shall make it a point to curb my violent tendencies, and turn into a true-blue demure kitten.

: ) I shall try, really try as hard as i can, I promise!!

Unless someone provokes me.
Haha!!

Someone also told me this a few times, something that bothers me, something that I refuse to address.

I know there are alot of things tt I ought to learn, behaviour wise etc., especially when it comes to manner of speech and the things tt come out of my mouth, the things I do etc. It is childish, somethings tt i do, and i find myself resembling a ball of contradictions(yes, mojojojo, i know wat ur gonna say, "humans are a bundle of contradictions" ). I can be incredibly mature at times, and yet impossibly childish at others, depending on my mood.

Does tt make me hypocritical?

Gosh.I hope not.

I guess, it's just tt, I hate being in the know for certain things, and so, i prefer to ti gong. There are certain things tt I do not want to think abt, and I find myself happier if I surround myself with child-like, simple thoughts. It does make the world seem like a better place, and being 19, does give me an excuse to shut out reality, and so, I did, hide behind the digits i guess.

I mean, I'm only left with 2 yrs!Just gimmi this 2 yrs to irritate the hell outta pple can!!!

But still, like a bundle of contradictions,

I'd appreciate it if u'll tell me when I step over the limits. Like someone said, there are alot of things that I ought to learn, and pple give me allowance bcos of my age.

But as of now, I only have 2 yrs left to learn.

onto a different note....

My lifestyle has taken a change recently. I don't know if it's good or bad, but i think it's good!Haha~I'm finally getting some exercise!!Seems like forever since I last exercised!Think the last time someone said i looked healthy was during the A'levels, where crazy me suddenly decided to throw all my books away and take to the pool every day, come rain or shine(I guess tt sort of explains why I'm working for a yr) .

Last Sat, I actually went cycling. Cycling, mind u!When was the last time I did tt? hmmm....2 yrs ago, i guess, Bloody long time!



2 very tired but vain pple, on the bus, trying to smile while the cam's snapping at them

Speeding away from Singapore.....I love watching the island fade away, it feels as if I'm going away from a very stuffy place, to a nice simple haven

All onboard!!!

ehhh....sucks. there's sth wrong!can;t upload the rest of the photos.

fine!

some other time!

*squeals excitedly

I randomly put some of my friends' blogs entries thru a device called the "benglish translater" and haha~ lo and behold the results!!!!I hafta say this, the entries are damn damn interesting now. Read on~

" Wedneslay, Otober 26, 2005

I must watch Just Like Heaven no matter si mi it takes!!!Perhaps my lan jiao life is rather void and empty now that limpeh need trashy romance movies to keep the flame alive. I need TLC!!! (somebody help me!!... )No, limpeh did not swear off men though at times those pukima really get on my lan jiao nerves with their lampa inflated ego so liddat to speak. Rather, limpeh need to once again remind my kacheng that there are still a few damn power lam pa around in case limpeh forget.If real life and reel life can be friends, limpeh will be the happiest woman on earth. By the way, limpeh only enjoy romance comedies, not those soapy melodrama... Spare limpeh the tears... Though limpeh must admit limpeh cried buckets over My Sassy Gal and Windstruck..wa si not greedy. Though limpeh lust after hunks and drools over damn power looking men (anyway, who won't?), i'll be more than hua hee to settle with a simpur lam pa who is sincere and nice and of course most tiong yaoly, is to take my lan jiao breath away..."

*Results of putting http://bipolarextremist.blogspot.com thru benglish translator (can be found on http://kennysia.blogspot.com)

"Tueslay, Otober 25, 2005

Yay! 2lay limpeh managed to call in for the 987fm Subaru Challenge! Limpeh want to win the cars! And limpeh signed limpeh and Kel Chen up immediately cuz the cheebye kia wants a car desperately too! But the cheebye kia sucks eh! That kanina pang sei limpeh and said that the cheebye kia want out! Sucks lo! U noe how hard is it to call in er not? Haiz... Now limpeh can't find a partner. Called Sab earlier and gort a earful from her... Wah, limpeh think limpeh shall have to forgo the chance ba... Haiz...Now limpeh is at Khatib Camp, 24SA (Spore Artillery) It seems that it's a classified camp, and there are like secrets in there... Hmm... Sounds choo bi though... Luckily, the peepur there are quite nice and understanding... The encik there is 1000000million times lagi best than the one in Sispec... Limpeh really da kai yan qian lo, like suaku, first time stepped into a mainland camp ( minus my lan jiao NCC days ) in NS. And the toilets here are super clean! And the bunks are new! It's like those in chalets lo... Limpeh is currently still trying to fit in and get used to the system here... Haha... Limpeh was telling my lan jiao new colleagues that limpeh feel like limpeh have just undergone rural to urban migration, from the ulu pandan TEkong to mainland lidat... Limpeh haven't really gort used to it yet... It's a rather strange feeling that limpeh can't explain... Limpeh gort so liddat used to seeing endless stretches of forest and now over here, limpeh can see a skoo beside my lan jiao camp and limpeh even heard the mari kita anthem this moling!!! Wah, it feels damn power to be in a humane place..."

*results of putting http://whats-k-up.blogspot.com thru benglish translator

"Wedneslay, Otober 26, 2005

A si beh li hai meet up!

Gim jit talked to Derran on the phone during lunch time and meet up with the lan jiao face after work. Nabeh! We liao liao went to Plaza Singapura for pizza hut, budden hor, as there was a long queue there, so liddat wa lang walked to Centrepoint to have Pizza Hut instead.We reached there around 7plus 8 and eat there and chatted lots. Nabeh! We liao liao have lots to catch up and boy the cheebye kia is very the tall budden hor, not as thin as last time. Limpeh guess it must have been two years since limpeh last saw him! Limpeh is not being exaggerating budden hor, wa lang really havent met up for ages! Boy, now that chao ah beng's hair is shorter and the cheebye kia looks like Jacky Cheung! Haha, really leh looks like leh! OF course not exactly the same lah budden hor, then gort the resemblance loh haha.Anyway, later wa lang walked to HMV and window shopped for a while before heading for home. It is so liddat nice of the lan jiao face to accompali take mrt though the cheebye kia is supposed to take the another direction one. THanks DeRRAN! Enjoyed your compali! Hope to meet up with you again soon! "

*results of putting http://ktvfanatic.blogspot.com thru the benglish translator

"The Day Limpeh Realised wa si Gaining WeightNABEH! Limpeh mean, did Limpeh expect to be 50kg forever? Hahar.NABEH! Limpeh must be delusional. Supper ebeli other lay le..But wa si on CLOUD TEN! Nabeh! We liao liao were talking about Australia, and about farmstays, and the cheebye kia said "maybe wa lang could go together next time" and Limpeh almost drowned in happiness.Of course Limpeh know the cheebye kia said it for the sake of saying it, budden hor, it makes limpeh happy.wa si just a girl.AND, Limpeh kau timed my lan jiao GE1101E project. 2033 words on a topic Limpeh know nothing about! EXCELLENT WORK. :] Limpeh is PROUD"

*result of putting http://littledragongbun.blogspot.com thru the benglish translator

Ahahaha~Funny funny guy, tt kenny sia.

Today is science night, which means to say I'm supposed to spend 1 and a half hours on that blasted subject with my little devil. Needless to say, blood was spilled.

Alot of it.
On the desk.
On the chair.
On the floor.

And unfortunately enough, it was all mine.

I was going thru with her how the various occupants of planet earth reproduce, after she dropped a bomb on me, telling me that bats are birds.

Because like birds, they can fly.

Oh. My. God. So, I went thru with her.

U know what are mammals?

She nodded. "They give birth"

very good....

So! Fishes, they swim. Whales, do they swim?

She nodded.

Fishes, do they give birth?

"No, they lay eggs"

What about whales?

"They are too big to lay eggs. So they give birth, so they are mammals"

!!!!!!!!!!

okay.....at least she knows that they are mammals and they do not freaking lay eggs. What logic she subscribes to, I leave it up to her. She also got my point that althoh some species may share some similarities, there are some characteristics that will be different. And, so, just for the fun of it, I asked her,

What about flowers? Do they give birth?

Big mistake. I really shdn't push my luck.

"You think I stupid ah? Flowers lay eggs!"

Flowers lay eggs.....
Flowers lay eggs.....

FLOWERS DO NOT FREAKING LAY EGGS!!!!!!!

I'm drained, yet I'm so filled, I feel like vomitting.

U should have let me cry.

If I can cry in front of u, it means I trust u enough to let my guard down. I trust u enough to be vulnerable in front of u. Can't u just let me indulge in this moment of weakness? Let me vent my pent-up emotions? No, u stopped me. Crying does not mean I cannot take it. It is just my way of coping.

How many people have actually seen me cry because of something that really affects me?

How many people have seen me cry because of my A-level results?
How many people have seen me cry when I lost the debate?
How many people have seen me cry because of council?
How many people have seen me cry when he broke my heart?

I cry. But after that, I pick myself up, and never look back.

You said I wanted the truth , yet I cannot take it.

I tell u now, yes I want the truth, I may not be able to take it right at this moment, but I CAN, and I WILL recover.

I'm just human.
Even U cry when u disappointed urself.

Maybe u just don't know me well enough. Maybe u too, don't take me seriously when it boils down to it. I know what he said, I see his point of view. I see urs too.

But more clearly than that, I see my point. U guys trust me enough when it comes to aiding u, but when it comes down to being co-workers, U guys just don't. How much more must I do in order to prove myself? I may look frivolous. I may behave so as well. But when it comes to work, I'm as serious as u all are.

"he's actually protecting u"

Damn it. I've had enough of people protecting me.

Has it ever crossed ur mind that maybe I want to experience hell for a change?

No way man, she can't survive

Bloody hell, I'm having a terrible headache.
Sleep, I need sleep.
Everything will be fine tomorrow.

I'll be fine.

ta~da!!!My japanese name!!!
Lo and behold!!

If I were born in the land of the rising sun, I would be called

Your Japanese Name Is...

Hana Karasuma

What's" your Japanese Name?

Yesh...Hana karasuma.

It is I.

haha~I much prefer the test I took at quizilla. There, I was called Aki!!!

Aki mind u!!!

woohoo~the same name as that fortunate girl in PRIDE.
Awww......MUST BE!!!Haha~I know I'm not making sense.

But, that's me : )

I think I'm addicted to tests.

Unfortunately not the academic ones,

but to these trashy ones.

It's all full house's fault!!!!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Oh hoho!!!I think it works!!!So I shall paste another.

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Am I feeling naughty tonight or wat? Ahahaha~eh, seducer can be many types ok!!!

Not necessarily that kind.

Wash out ur brains people!!!!

ohohoh!!!Found this on a friend's blog and tried it. so, ta~da!!!My results. I hope it turns out fine. Never tried pasting anything like that on my blog b4. Wonder if it really will appear as sensical things rather than some meaningless computer jargon thing.

*deep breaths everyone.....here it goes. My first try!!!
*crosses fingers and toes

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

There must be something about work and men that doesn't agree with me.

Somehow, I've always had problems with male colleagues at work. And somehow, I've always have to lose my temper in order for them to take me seriously. What is it about me that make men go all chauvinistic and decide that they can push me around and deny me the same power over them?

Arghhh!!!!

In Maybank, there was bird man, who foolishly thot that a niao lei can out-talk me.

Hah!!Welcome to reality buddy!!!

And now, there is aNvi (how am i doing with my anagram so far?heheh~). I guess, he's not totally at fault. We can all understand how frustrated it must be like to be tossed around like a great white trout between departments, and finally being left on the floor to suffocate

and eventually rot

and stink

and smell,

with flies buzzing all around it

anyway, my point is, being neither here nor there(sorry, got carried away by the mental image of him turning into a half-fish and struggling for air on land, jumping up and down, flipping salty sea water inconsiderately on passers-by before dying an agonising death!!!Muahahaha~)

But still, if u expect people to drop everything on hand to do things for u, shouldn't u at least attempt to reciprocate the kindness? Or at the very minimum, avoid comments that will make people's blood boil,not only boil, but boil until it turns into gaseous form, can!! I wasn't angry that he can't call customer for me. I understand, or at least I try to understand the difficult situation that call centre's facing right now. What I'm unable to stand is the irresponsible thing that came out of that wretched mouth of his.

"So?I don't know. Not my problem" Not ur problem, not ur problem.

NOT YOUR PROBLEM.

I know, ur just trying to protect ur people, or wat's left of them, but, u have to understand, I also have to protect my people, especially a newbe who doesn't yet dare to chase u guys for our cases, sorry, for YOUR cases.

Ur people gave Us this case, excuse me, correct me if I'm wrong, but if it's not ur problem, should it be mine?

If u haven't yet realised, we've already stopped calling u guys up to help us contact customers regarding missing dates. Y? Have u ever wondered? Cos we kena-ed from our officer, when she realised that we are holding onto a ridiculous amount of overdue cheques. But did we even utter a word about that in front of u guys? All I'm asking for is just a modicum of appreciation, basic respect.

We are not tools to help u answer customers enquiries.
We are also like u, flesh and blood.
You can snap, so can we. (bloody hell, it sounds like some "yam-can-cook commercial)

I tell u, I felt a whole bloody damn better after I lost it on Jo during lunch and afterwards when that miserable sod called up. I think, upon hindsight, after I cooled down, I sort of regretted. I think, when I'm angry, when I'm really angry until I almost burst into tears that kind angry, I become incoherent. I just lose my ability to express myself. I'll be so consumed by that something waiting to burst out that my mind just malfunctioned.

I wasn't sure if he really understood the reason of my anger.
And that's a waste.
Cos, well, there won't be a better time to lay things on the table.

And that's me, always missing the right timing,

and dwelling on the could-have-beens.

I'm too impulsive for my own good. Too emotional.
I really think it's very humiliating to cry when ur trying to scold someone. And I don't understand why, but the angrier I get, the more I felt like crying.

And then, after that, I'll get this inexplicable urge to laugh.

Laugh until cry that kind.

I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it that I cannot get angry like normal people do!!

Arghhh!!!!What's wrong with me!!!

Work, it must be work.

Working is not for me.

So far I've had three real jobs.
And in all three, I just have to get into fights with male colleagues.

What's wrong with me!!!!

ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm exploding on sour grapes!!!!!!!!!!

What's wrong with me?!!!

The explanation? Full house. Watch it.

I think I make a good advertisement designer.
Seems like I'm gifted in the act of creating taglines/punchlines, or wateva u call that.

Way to go u talented bitch!Wahaha~

Haiz~there's something seriously wrong with the world today. How can it be so difficult and yet simple at the same time? Grey areas, I supposed. Wouldn't life be too boring without the existence of grey areas? U think? There is this precocious little boy who brought up this issue of grey areas. According to him, grey areas exist because the person does not have enough faith in what he or she believes in.

Well, I think a person can also have faith in the grey areas.
He's just too science.
*scoff

Last Sat was an example of a grey area. Or rather, a nice mix of two extremes.
It was a very simple affair, just wandering around Serangoon.
I think sometimes, there's no need for extravagance to make something especially memorable.

It just takes the right company.
And I had just that.

I think in life, one will encounter many friends.
There are those that have to be there to make a moment the moment
Then there are those who are the moment
There are those that caused u to sink into confusion and misery
Then there are those that will give u a hand out of it.
There are those who make u grow
Then there are those who grow with you.
There are those u wanna share ur bad times with
Then there are also those that u absolutely wanna avoid during a bad patch
And then there are those who absolutely no matter what will wanna rough it out with u during ur bad patch
There are those u wanna cry with
Then there are those whom u dun wan to see u cry
Then there are those who absolutely no matter wat will wanna cry with u
And then there are those who will try their damndest to make u smile

There are so many, hundred! thousand! million! types of friends for so many hundred, thousands, millions times of needs.

I think I'm incredibly fortunate to be able to find all these and more, in just two people (ahaha~macham some rejoice shampoo, 3-in-1!!haha~except this is more value for money!So-many-in-1!!haha~ok,k,serious, serious)
I think maybe we humans tend to complicate things, think too much, care too much for the insignificant, that we neglect what's really important. Sometimes the right company, the right conversation is enough.

Is more than enough, as a matter of fact.
I think, besides the two of them, there's no other people with whom I can experience what I did on Sat.

Irreplaceable. Thank u!

I also think I got my answer to the qn that I posed to some people.

He is not the one,
even if he has the power to always make u happy.
He is also not the one,
even if he has the power to disappoint u time and again, anger and upset u.

It is he,
only when he can make u laugh while ur angry at the same time,
make u feel happy even when ur hurting like hell inside, because of him,
bereft u of all ur strength and goodwill, unabling u to walk away from him no matter how destructive it is,
make u think that the belief " if u love him let him go" is the crap of craps
corrode ur intelligence enough to wage an internal war, so that ur heart and brain both end up with serious casualties
turn u into the most forgiving of all people, when it comes to him

It is he,
only when u are so comfortable with him that u can scold him all u want, and he can scold u all he wants and
u'll both still know deep down how much u mean to each other.

I think I finally know why is it that I have something for guys who bicker with me.
Not I zhi tao mei qu ok!!!I've a perfectly sound reason.

Two in fact.
*smirks

It's because I like confident people. They dare to believe in miracles, enough for the two of us,
because I do not.
It's because if u meet someone, and all u do, is bicker, but eventually, he's still incredibly important to u
it just shows that no matter how much u try to dislike that person, make him or her dislike u, hey, he is still important to u, then ta~da! He must be the one!
Cos despite ur best efforts, u guys are still attracted to each other!

Hmmm.... to derive all these chim theories from just 24 discs,

Now am I smart or wat?

AHAHA~did u see? did u see?
The brillient ad designer at work again.
Great advertisement for full house I tell u!

Sooooooooooo much better than those that are disguised as comments on my blog!!
*bleah~~~pui!

to sum up my week:
Monday: PRIDE
Tuesday: A trip to hell and back
Wednesday: A reality check and a walk down memory lane

4e3 at Pow Sing: The boys (YUCKS!)

4e3 at Pow Sing: The girls (SWOONS)

Thursday: A revisit to hell

Friday: An interlude to the exotic

Selamat Hari Raya: Geylang Serai
Selamat Hari Raya: At the Bazaar
Selamat Hari Raya: The people


Selamat Hari Raya: The pleasures

A picture speaks a thousand words.

So many pictures.

So many words.

So many unsaid things.

My week.

Monday!!!!!!ARGHHHH!!!!!!!

Ok, today wasn't that bad. I was feeling quite ok until someone came and told me that I resemble a certain somebody in L2...

*bleah~
I shall not say who, cos she reads my blog....OOps~Sorry Jo!

uh~oh!

I had quite a weekend with my family. Went to my cousin's place to celebrate baby Ashton's 1st month arrival in this world. He is really quite cute, u noe?

Hands off, mu, don't u DARE have any sexual fantasies on THIS Ashton!!!

I think I finally understood wat some people mean when they say that they are afraid to go near babies, or hold hamsters in their palms, for fear of accidentally killing them. Ashton is sooooooooooo small. His head is just the size of my cupped palms, and if u think my eyes are impossibly small and, and invisible, u should see his. His would e like, like can only be seen under a magnifying glass loh!And his hands and feet. Oh my god....his fingers and toes arh, soooooooo tiny like

his whole feet and arm can be stuffed inside my nostrils
and still got space

Now, on an entirely different note. Let me tell u about Ashton's father, cousin Alex.

I tell u, the sight tt greeted me when I arrived at their doorstep is straight out of a male version of Baywatch.
Oh my god.
Imagine stepping out of the lift and the first thing, or rather, things u see were 4 naked, golden brown torsos...oh my god. Nevermind that one of those belongs to my paternal cousin. I had an extremely hard time regulating my breathing and the direction my eyes were automatically taking.

STAY FOCUSED ON HIS FACE WHEN CONGRATULATING HIM!!!FOR GOD'S SAKE

And my mum was no better.
Must have inherited her genes.

Throughout the whole course of the buffet, she was gleefully whispering to me how hot cousin Alex is, and wat a great figure he has.

Of which I agreed wholeheartedly of cos, deep in the secret, secret, secret corner of my heart.
Come on loh, in times like this, if the mother has no self-restraint, the daughter has to at least demonstrate some sign of sensibility and not gush with her.

Besides, two gorgeous ladies gushing and swooning would be far too obvious.

I think cousin Dawn (Alex's wife, *bleah tt lucky woman) is the kind of woman I admire. I think I like her.
The family didn't at first, preferring the studious teacher woman (who was shamelessly pursuing cousin Alex). Althoh, I'm not sure if they do now, but well, I dunno fortunately or unfortunately lah huh, bom kena shotgun, bo bian. I guess they just hafta accept her. I guess the shotgun thing doesn't help her image. But well, my paternal side's quite conservative so, I guess the fact that she bore them a baby boy helps matters.

Cousin Dawn has 3 tattoos. At least 3 of which I can see. And very gracious and friendly, gregarious and bubbly (Uncle Raymond, gregarious is sth like sociable : ) ) but too liberal I guess, too open with her affections. I think the older generation sees that as lacking in virtue and yah, a foundation for divorce.

It is frustrating u noe, when all u wanted to do is to be polite and friendly, and people see u as loose and immoral. I see her hugging and kissing her relatives and friends and I soooo much wished my family to be able to display their affections lidat. I mean, tsk~ of cos, I know that everyone loves me.

How can they not?*raises an eyebrow in an expression of durh

but still, sometimes, love needs to be displayed, demonstrated. I think we Chinese in a way, by clinging so tightly to these concepts of tradition, tend to miss out on some of these finer things in life.

Hmm!If I ever get married, he has to be someone who isn't shy to show me, and the world, how much he loves me.And our children, of cos. It doesn't have to be obvious, doesn't have to an announcement like what some posse ppl do.

I think simple gestures say a whole lot more.

I was soooo overdosed on sour grapes last wed when a particular s'immaS boyfriend called her on her hp when she left to find him, without her hp. And a particular person picked up the call. Afterwhich the second "particular" person turned ard and faced me in Kbox and "wahlao-ed" to me.

"u noe what he said onot? He asked me where is immaS, then I said she left to find u. And then he said she didn't bring her hp again right? Haiz~ and he said in a very adoring manner"

argh!!!!!!I so wanted to kill someone at that very moment.
Even more so, after his arrival.
And even, even more so the day after when we girls were lunching together and a particular immaS told us, not in an upset voice, mind you, that she lost her hp on the cab back and this morning, a particular boyfriend sweetly wrote his hp no. on a piece of paper and put it inside her wallet and told her to call him if she needs anything. All this, and more. Excuse me, but can it get any worst than this?

YESS!!!!
He even added (mock serious of cos) that if she lost the paper, he'll break up with her. haha~so cute eh!
Arghhh......i can feel sour grapes in my mouth again.

Haiz....when will my he appear?

Pls appear soon before I turn yellow, wrinkle and die.

A friend introduced this website to me http://web.singnet.com.sg/~mcsh5/cancer.html.
And I think it's damn damn interesting. Quite scary too, to realise that it's freaking accurate.

I think it's so fascinating that human behaviours are guided by the stars. I mean, it's the same as saying that "our fates are all pre-decided". It contrasts the belief that humans are able to effect change, and are able to change for the better.

Ho shit. I didn't realise that we are such helpless creatures who have no control over ourselves. We are just like,
ANIMALS
But I guess, in a way, it helps explain alot of things

like, why some people are just like that.

Hmm...I wonder what sign is eignA born under, or wat star nahC nayrB falls under, for that matter.
Is there one that embraces sluttiness or "posse-ness"? I think I need to study more on this subject in order to come to a conclusion. Perhaps my knowledge of horoscopes are too limited.

*sigh I sincerely apologise.

OOps!Haha~Personal attacks. Watch out terrorists!Here comes a fairy to rival the bombs u set in Bali!

Cancer is the fourth Sign of the Zodiac. After the exploration of Self, the physical world, and the intellectual world by the first three Signs, Cancer people turn to nurturing the family group. They are emotional and traditional, interested in heredity and ancestors, and this is reflected in their desire to care for relatives and propagate the family line. Their lives are generally centred around the home, including hereditary property and "family roots." As the fourth Sign, Cancer also rules the fourth House: the House of Home.


The Astrological Symbol of Cancer is the Crab. Like the Crab, Cancerians go through life with a strong shell around them that is not easily broken. If necessary, they can retreat into their shell until it's safe to come out, but sometimes they become moody and refuse to leave. They can, quite literally, be crabby. In general, Cancerians are the first people to express emotion in any given situation -- the first to laugh and the first to tears. In this way, Cancer exemplifies the Cardinal Quality assigned to it. They are strong willed and persistent, and the rare occasions when their sympathy and kindness doesn't get them what they want they aren't above using emotional manipulation -- tears or sulking -- to get it. Within the Zodiac, Cancer is opposite Capricorn, the Sign of Social Status. While Capricorn is about how the world perceives you, people born under Cancer are more interested in their family and home life. They tend to be very protective of loved ones. They usually aren't ambitious, preferring the gentle and passive side of life.


Cancer is ruled by the Moon. In ancient times, the Moon was perceived as the Great Mother, responsible for nurturing all life. It represents fertility and instinct. The Moon controls the tides and all water on Earth, and it has a strong effect on human emotions. People born under Cancer tend to be more sensitive to the movement of the Moon through the Zodiac than other Signs are, their moods changing with the Moon's passage. They may be brooding or touchy when the Moon is passing through incompatible Signs, but strongly intuitive when the Moon is in a favourable Sign. Because of the maternal aspect of the Moon, Cancerians tend to have a strong need to protect themselves and their families. Generally domestic and peaceful, they have strong emotional drives and won't sit still when loved ones are threatened. Despite their general timidity, they can be patronizing when people cross them.


The Element associated with Cancer is Water. Water Signs are emotional: they tend to respond to the world through emotion, rather than physical action, practicality, or intellect. Cancerians are very intuitive, and emotion is a key part of their lives. They may be sentimental, often becoming collectors of things that remind them of family or the past. They need to be careful not to hoard things, however, and they can be possessive of what is theirs. They are thrifty, and dislike wasting money on frivolous things. Because of their strong emotions, people born under Cancer may tend to live in the past. They are easily hurt, so they attempt to protect themselves from the emotional stress of the present by rehashing the past instead. Their warm and caring nature is very sensitive to other people's harshness. It is important for Cancerians to learn not to jump into self protective mode at the first sign of trouble, because their need for security can prevent them from discovering new things.


Because they are the nurturers of the Zodiac, people born under Cancer have a strong association with food. Additionally, they are very imaginative and sensitive, making many Cancerians excellent amateur chefs. Some go on to make a career out of cooking! They also tend to be more patriotic then other Signs, largely due to their strong emotional attachment to the place of their birth.


In their leisure time, Cancerians tend to enjoy physical exercise, finding that sweat helps them counter the stress inherent in their emotional natures. They often enjoy team sports because of the feeling of family within a team. Water sports also appeal to them. Artistic endeavours, written or on canvas, allow them to channel their swirling emotions into productive output. In love relationships, Cancer is caring, devoted, and romantic.


Cancer rules the breasts and stomach. People born under Cancer may suffer from stomach and digestive problems more often than people born under other Signs. The Moon is silver and white, and these are Cancer's colours as well.


The great strength of the Cancer born is in their devotion to family. Their emotional orientation to life help them understand the difficulties their loved ones must work through. Their affectionate natures make them among the most caring characters of the Zodiac.

On second thoughts. I think perhaps we humans sometimes use horoscopes as excuses to explain our short comings. Maybe all this stars thing, all this chinese zodia, palmistry, tarot card things are just invented for that reason, to excuse ourselves from our mistakes.

Afterall, don't we always?

P.S to decipher the names, just unscrambe the letters. woohoo~sometimes i juz can't stand my brilliance *winkz

yes!!!!!!!!!I can blog!!!woohooo~finally!

okok, but I shall blog some other day, tell u about the tale of 2 lovelorns who overdosed on sour grapes another day. haha~