About 5 yrs ago,
she almost fell in love.

She did alot of stupid things then.
There were fears, tears, alot of anger,
and revelation about herself.

She promised herself then that she will never allow herself to become that way again.

The loss of control
The emotional rollercoaster
They were all too much to handle.

It was like dancing,
he advanced,
she retreated.

And clumsily, she trampled on his feet.

He decided to switch partner.

And she became a total wreck.

Last saturday, her fren told her that she was carrying a grudge.
She refuted that vehemently, cos sometimes,
it is hard to admit to oneself that one is not that good afterall.

Her fren got the idea right,
just the wrong guy :p

She was guilty of carryin a grudge.
She was guilty of taking revenge on innocent parties.

She is sorrier than ever.

She decides to sheath her claws,
She is trying to change,
hopefully she will.

But she honestly doesn't think so.

That level of vulnerability is just too scary.

But she will sheath her claws.

She will.
She must.