It's almost been a month of late night camping in the office
and I foresee that things are not set to improve until the headcount gets replenished.
That said, I've gotta admit that I'm almost used to it already.

I've even got accustomed to communicating with the Frenglish speaking Luxembourg custodian.
I think my Singlish and his Frenglish has found a way to meet each other in the middle.

It's true you know,
what they say

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

Having survived in the subsidiary of the worst local bank for the past month has definitely made me more resilient.

No way am I gonna sit quietly while the compliance bitch fires arrows at me anymore.
I catch them, light them up with a match, and return them with doubled the magnitude.

Yes, I've learnt.

I bloody well know that everything comes with a price,
including this seemingly endless slogging that I'm putting myself through.

Occasionally, I do wonder if the sacrifices I've made are worthwhile.
But when I think again,
noone ever knows at the point in time they made the sacrifices if they are worthwhile.
You'll only know when they are realised.
Unfortunately, life doesn't work like the futures in the Indian market,
where they are required to be realised daily against the NAV.
Most of the time,
life is like the other markets in the world where gains will only be realised once the position is closed.

I do not know if these things I've given up will eventually be for nothing.
I may very well lose all my capital in the short term.
But like funds, as long as you keep it in for the long term, you'll eventually gain.

I believe that as long as I'm willing to grit my teeth and hang in there,
even if I don't get the recognition in this current shithole,
I'll get my due rewards in time to come, from somewhere else.

Work and my pay sucks to the core right now.
But the exposure and things I pick up from this trying period,
they're priceless.